Wrote This Yesterday
I refuse to shead anymore tears for guys. It is not worthe it and they dont even care. Why do I continually waste my time / emotions on ppl who dont do the same for me? I'm so sick of it! I'm tired of being so fuckin boy crazy, and falling in love so quick and so easily, its anoying. And I'm through with cryin all the time b/c my bf is out drunk and having fun when I'm sitting at home alone. Its not fair, I get this huge fucking guilt trip when I wanna go out sober with my friends, cuz no i cant be trusted, I fucked up once and now I shall nevr be trusted again. YET I let him hang out with his friends all the time drunk, I even encourage it, and hes in a hot tube for crist shakes, and he so did not have a bathing suit in his car AND hes sleepin over at some chicks house. I AM SO FUCKIN MAD! And this time I'm not drunk and over reacting, I'm sober and still pissed off. And almost ready to call it quits. I dino if I can take it anymore. I love him btu he doesnt love me. He just wants sex and a hott girl, which is exactly what he's gettin. And he wants som1 to make feel bad when they wanna go out with thier friends, but when he goes out, spends the fucking night at som1 house, its ok, and I cant have a prob with that. ITS NOT FAIR! and this torture needs to end. I'm goin out when I wanna and your not gunna make me feel bad about it! And I'm drinkin and having fun and I WONT do anything to hurt him because I love him and he just doesnt understand that. I mean its over! I've learned my lesson and will nevr do it again! I'm not stupid, I actually learn from my mistakes and dont repeat them. So why cant we just drop this, let it go and not bring it up every time i wanna go out? SO FUCKING ANGREY!