You'll find whats left of us in a cloud of dust on highway four...
I'VE BEEN PUTTING MY HEART AND SOUL ON THE LINE, SAID YOU NEEDED SOME TIME JUST A LITTLE MORE TIME TO MAKE UP YOUR MIND BUT ITS BEEN LONG ENOUGH, TIME IS UP! BYE BYE LOVE I'LL CATCH YOU LATER, GOT A LEAD FOOT DOWN ON MY ACCELERATOR AND THE REAR VIEW MIRROR'S TORN OFF, AND I AIN'T NEVER LOOKING BACK, YOU CAN COUNT ON THAT! I'VE TRIED ALL I CAN IMAGINE, I'VE BEGGED AND I'VE PLEADED IN TRUE LOVERS FASHION, I'VE GOT PRIDE, I'M TAKING IT FOR A RIDE, BYE BYE, BYE BYE MY BABY BYE BYE.
So that is pretty much the setting of this journal entry. I guess Amr and I aren't really working... again. He needs time, his space or whatever, and I don't think you do that in relationships. Ya ya, I know the whole quote "If you love them, let them go, if their yours, they'll come back, if not, it was never meant to be" or something like that. But whatever, he is holding me responsible for dumb shit that happened a year and a half ago, and though I feel bad, its been done, over with, and there is nothing I can do to make it up to him. I love him though, I really do. I guess deep inside I hope that this is all a bad dream I'll wake up from and he'll be there loving me still. I mean, he says he still loves me, he just needs his space right now. Ok, enough of that.
Today I went to the beach with my best friend Ash cuz we do that like once a week. Anyways, we had a great time in the water and tanning, but there was a lot of seaweed. Anyhow, things were going great until we went over to the showers and I see a figure coming down the stairs. I was like "I think that's heather" and Ashley was like "what do you want to do, run?" Not to sound immature, but yes, I did want to run, and I did. I got dressed quickly as she walked right by me avoiding even looking at me. She was with Illiana. Oh well. We're not friends anymore, she didn't say hi, what really did I expect? Way awkward though... I had to laugh about it later.
So that is pretty much the setting of this journal entry. I guess Amr and I aren't really working... again. He needs time, his space or whatever, and I don't think you do that in relationships. Ya ya, I know the whole quote "If you love them, let them go, if their yours, they'll come back, if not, it was never meant to be" or something like that. But whatever, he is holding me responsible for dumb shit that happened a year and a half ago, and though I feel bad, its been done, over with, and there is nothing I can do to make it up to him. I love him though, I really do. I guess deep inside I hope that this is all a bad dream I'll wake up from and he'll be there loving me still. I mean, he says he still loves me, he just needs his space right now. Ok, enough of that.
Today I went to the beach with my best friend Ash cuz we do that like once a week. Anyways, we had a great time in the water and tanning, but there was a lot of seaweed. Anyhow, things were going great until we went over to the showers and I see a figure coming down the stairs. I was like "I think that's heather" and Ashley was like "what do you want to do, run?" Not to sound immature, but yes, I did want to run, and I did. I got dressed quickly as she walked right by me avoiding even looking at me. She was with Illiana. Oh well. We're not friends anymore, she didn't say hi, what really did I expect? Way awkward though... I had to laugh about it later.