my heart is sinking.. how shall i save it?
Today has been the longest day of my life.. i got up at 1.. and its only a little after 8.. so time-wise.. probably not the longest day of my life.. but thought-wise... i dont believe i have ever thought this much in one day.. so many tears, so many thoughts, but i have gotten no where..im stuck in the same zone that i was in lastnight.. loss for words.. I wish i would have spoken up.. but all i could do was agree.. yes.. uh-huh.. thats probably right.. now my minds going through all of what i should have said.. and yeah.. i probably should have said it.. but i couldnt.. and i suppose i didnt for a reason? Or so i will keep telling myself. "everything happens for a reason" Im so in love.. but im being told its time to get out of love.. but when theres no real reason to, its like trying to run away in your dreams.. you know those dreams where you try and try to run but you get no where. Something is after you, but you cant get away... much like that. I have those dreams alot, but i can wake up to get away while im dreaming. Im awake now.. and i cant get away....