Yeahhhh.

[ivegotthemic15]

So I officially just blah. Im so annoyed with myself. I just cannot stand the things I do and the way I am sometimes. I just want to be alone. And not have to worry about anyone ever judging me or worry wether or not Im saying the wrong things. Or about boys or what they think of me. I hate fast food. I know how random right? But Im seriously never eating it again. It makes me sick. I hate it. I'll stick with mommas cookin' any ole day. Myspace is being gay right now. Somebody has been trying to get on my myspace so its not letting me go on because of failed login attempts. Sup wit dat? Yeah and theres like 30 year olds trying to pick me up. Its disgusting. Im thinking about blocking them or something. Anyways. I hung out with this kid matt last night and we were hanging at his friend chris' house, and everything was going well... we were playing guitar hero and I was learnin how to shred and I got pretty tubular at meduim level and it was all gravy.... then him and his friend snorted a line of coke! I was like... holy shit... holy shit... but I kept my cool. I was just so shocked cause Ive never seen any one do that before, and Im totally not into that. So I don't really wanna talk to this kid ever again. Ive seen whatthat shit can do and I dont wanna get involved in it. HELL NO. But yeah so that was sad and pretty upsetting. And new boy that I like isnt really into me... He hasnt replyed to a message I sent him over myspace and that sucks. But yeah. I hate men. Im a man hater. It was kinda cool being back in school again... Having some sort of guideline. I like schedule. But it feels good being able to just roll with it too, I actually prefer it. Im lying to myself. I love it. But I'm doing a little reverse physchology on myself. The new video lab at school is spectacular. I am in awe. Oh and Aaron Bigger called me from Iraq. I miss him. He says he misses me and that hes sorry for everything that happened over the summer. and yeah yeah yeah. I don't know. I love Aaron but he really fucked me over in the summer and I just don't know if I'd wanna be in a relationship withhim cause hes so wishy washy. Besides I just got out of a relationship and this new guy .... well I'm into him and wanna see where it could go.... which is more than likely nowhere.

But Hey. Thats life. And these are the cards I was dealt. It's hard out here for a pimp.

Ka-Keep it Realio.

-Jaimie "The Jam-Master"