Gramma and Samuel
Beware: utter bullshit about the be thrown at you:
Oh god... I can't wait until my gramma leaves. I know that I'm super fucked up to say such a thing. I will be sorry when she is gone (in the living sense). I know this. I just can't stand the constant judgments and comments about how we are over indulgent and plan our day around food. Which... only feels that way when she is hear because my parents turn off the TV and can't think of anything else to do. I have been either out of the house or hiding in my room. I feel like a teen in the throes of the angst!!
Anyway. She will be gone tomorrow before I get home from work... so I plan to say my goodbyes today and be civil. Let's see if I can make it to the end without blowing up on her. By the way... when you are around someone who had suddenly gained or lost a considerable amount of weight, it is not very polite to comment on it with every breath you take. Even it it is the latter.
So, I have been taking my mom to church on Sundays. They are in the book of Samuel and if you are not familiar with the book it is the one where the famous David and Goliath battle takes place. I missed the week that they did that one, of course... since it would have been the only part I would have been interested in hearing. Anyway... the whole book is fucked up. I mean... I'm sitting there and reading along and hearing what the pastor is saying. He has it all wrong. I don't see what he is saying at all!! This book is the biggest fucking contradiction and no one in the whole congregation sees it. They only see and hear what has been plucked out for the study.
Lets summarize.
So... the people of Israel go to Samuel and tell him that they want a king. So God tells Samuel, "they want a king... oh I will just show them what a king can be". He tells Samuel that he would like for Saul to be king and that he is the chosen one. This man is one of those pretty boys who is mainly just good looks and nothing much else. But the point is that Saul did not ask to be king. When Saul goes to him and tells him of God choice Saul does not want to do it. Even when he is announced he tries to hide behind something so no one will know it is him that has been chosen to be king.
Anyway... Saul sucks, right. I mean... he wasn't royal in any way before hand. He was pretty much a spoiled brat that always got his way and used his looks to get what he wanted. I am not saying the dude was an innocent at all. But the purpose of having Saul as king was the show Israel that because of the faithlessness they were in for it. Punished by a pretty boy king who would soon use his title to his advantage. Let's face it... if you are appointed this high position that you didn't want, but there are possibilities to use that position for stuff you want... who wouldn't take it? Does it make me an asshole to relate to this?
So... Saul is king and we already established that he sucks, right? He has a son named Jonathan who is like the polar opposite then Saul. He has honor and blah blah blah. He becomes very good friends with David (and the pastor made a special point to say that their relationship was not homosexual). Saul... after years of being king finds that soon his title will be taken from him by David and he sets out to kill him. Well, he continues to act spoiled and throws himself many tantrums.
What the hell is my point? Okay. Saul was fucking doomed. He never had a chance. He already didn't have much character or honor to begin with and was thrown into a situation where these defects would be intensified. He didn't ask to be king. This was something that was orchestrated to happen. No matter what ended up happening, it was the plan to happen that way. to put a shitty king in place. to make him grow more and more horrible over the year by throwing in jealousy in the mix. Then to use the whole situation to teach a lesson about lack of faith. Hundreds of people died during this little lesson. I feel really sorry for Saul. He was a direct product of his environment and punished severely.
Whoa... Okay... I'm going to pick up my preggo friend and haul her ass all around town. Should be a fucking blast.
End bullshit.
Oh god... I can't wait until my gramma leaves. I know that I'm super fucked up to say such a thing. I will be sorry when she is gone (in the living sense). I know this. I just can't stand the constant judgments and comments about how we are over indulgent and plan our day around food. Which... only feels that way when she is hear because my parents turn off the TV and can't think of anything else to do. I have been either out of the house or hiding in my room. I feel like a teen in the throes of the angst!!
Anyway. She will be gone tomorrow before I get home from work... so I plan to say my goodbyes today and be civil. Let's see if I can make it to the end without blowing up on her. By the way... when you are around someone who had suddenly gained or lost a considerable amount of weight, it is not very polite to comment on it with every breath you take. Even it it is the latter.
So, I have been taking my mom to church on Sundays. They are in the book of Samuel and if you are not familiar with the book it is the one where the famous David and Goliath battle takes place. I missed the week that they did that one, of course... since it would have been the only part I would have been interested in hearing. Anyway... the whole book is fucked up. I mean... I'm sitting there and reading along and hearing what the pastor is saying. He has it all wrong. I don't see what he is saying at all!! This book is the biggest fucking contradiction and no one in the whole congregation sees it. They only see and hear what has been plucked out for the study.
Lets summarize.
So... the people of Israel go to Samuel and tell him that they want a king. So God tells Samuel, "they want a king... oh I will just show them what a king can be". He tells Samuel that he would like for Saul to be king and that he is the chosen one. This man is one of those pretty boys who is mainly just good looks and nothing much else. But the point is that Saul did not ask to be king. When Saul goes to him and tells him of God choice Saul does not want to do it. Even when he is announced he tries to hide behind something so no one will know it is him that has been chosen to be king.
Anyway... Saul sucks, right. I mean... he wasn't royal in any way before hand. He was pretty much a spoiled brat that always got his way and used his looks to get what he wanted. I am not saying the dude was an innocent at all. But the purpose of having Saul as king was the show Israel that because of the faithlessness they were in for it. Punished by a pretty boy king who would soon use his title to his advantage. Let's face it... if you are appointed this high position that you didn't want, but there are possibilities to use that position for stuff you want... who wouldn't take it? Does it make me an asshole to relate to this?
So... Saul is king and we already established that he sucks, right? He has a son named Jonathan who is like the polar opposite then Saul. He has honor and blah blah blah. He becomes very good friends with David (and the pastor made a special point to say that their relationship was not homosexual). Saul... after years of being king finds that soon his title will be taken from him by David and he sets out to kill him. Well, he continues to act spoiled and throws himself many tantrums.
What the hell is my point? Okay. Saul was fucking doomed. He never had a chance. He already didn't have much character or honor to begin with and was thrown into a situation where these defects would be intensified. He didn't ask to be king. This was something that was orchestrated to happen. No matter what ended up happening, it was the plan to happen that way. to put a shitty king in place. to make him grow more and more horrible over the year by throwing in jealousy in the mix. Then to use the whole situation to teach a lesson about lack of faith. Hundreds of people died during this little lesson. I feel really sorry for Saul. He was a direct product of his environment and punished severely.
Whoa... Okay... I'm going to pick up my preggo friend and haul her ass all around town. Should be a fucking blast.
End bullshit.