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[ive_got_fears]

So I fucked up, really really bad this time, and I really dont think I have it in me to fix things right now. Thats how i even got into this mess in the first place, I was stressed out so to alleviate the stress I just stopped dealing with the things that were stressing me out. It worked for awhile, untill I realized that I was just making

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[mo_squishy]

only four? sam...how many people does it take to convince you? and maybe, take a look at those four people that are pushing for you to better yourself, as opposed to the ones that think it's a bad idea for you to cut back... ultimately it comes down to you. if you don't think that you can do it, and you don't want to...all the agreeing sides in the world can't make you. you're strong and you won't ever do anything unless your own heart's in it...so, focus on that. you're not happy, so why not try a different path and see what happens? what do you have to lose...

i know that i may have hurt you, if that's what it is...but you know my views. you know that i was in a different world. i have my own liquidated problems...and for that i'm sorry.

[ive_got_fears]

you dont even know what Im talking about.

[mo_squishy]

guess not, no one ever will.

[ive_got_fears]

and so what? I'm the only one that matters when it comes to taking care of myself.

[ive_got_fears]

and people are only gonna hear what they want to, not always what is actually being said. re-read that middle part, if you really care to, and try and see if you can hear what I'm really saying.

[mo_squishy]

i understand what you're saying sam. if you really feel like you need to hide from the world in order to get away from this shit then do it. you obviously want to stop because it's bothering you. if you need help, and you can't do it by yourself, then you have to let someone know. you're always telling me these things, like you want help...but when i ever had any input you'd just get upset with me and tell me that i don't understand. you're always saying that no one understands. well either figure out how to make someone understand or just come out and tell someone how they can start to try to help you...

[mo_squishy]

and you've got something going on, so you turn to drugs, because they're there...and in return, it just causes more. so if they're not in your face 24-7, maybe you can elliminate half of the problem...and effectively start to work on the other half.

[ive_got_fears]

Just dont worry about it, im sorry for how i was acting the past 2 months I could never make you understand what was going on and its not really that important that you do, and I dont need help I'm the only one who can help me and I am.

[mo_squishy]

i won't try to interfere with your life...i just don't want to lose you in mine.