Two Months Gone
Wow ... so, um, hey guys, what's up?
Livejournal to me was always the place for longer, more thoughtful commentary. It was a place to put out ideas for discussion and serious matters that required consideration. It was also the place where I met so many great people.
And I miss those people! I miss all of you, even the ones I do still see on Twitter, on Facebook, etc. I miss reading the longer entries and giving things more careful attention.
The past several months have been absolutely mind-blowing in terms of growth and expansion. I've been re-learning so many of the things that used to bring me joy and re-integrating them into my life, sometimes over the objections of people whose opinion matters a lot to me. I was never good at asserting myself around my loved ones - I could do it with people I didn't care about, but people I love have historically been more important than me to my mind. That's changing. That's changing a lot.
You guys, I'm cooking. I've made four new salsas in the past week alone, each of them devoured by neighbors and relatives. I've taught myself how to cut up a whole chicken rather than relying on boneless, skinless breasts. I've made barbecue rubs, mops, and sauces. I've got a new grill the size of a Chevy, just for me.
I can't tell you how much I love it. Five hours in the kitchen is a fecking wonderful afternoon, chopping and dicing and moving. I've always loved it, but I always sucked at it, because I never paid enough attention to what I was doing. Now I'm noticing where the fat separates from the tendon, how the addition of one less lime would increase the flavor, why I don't want to sauce things too early.
I'm reading again. Right now it's Naomi Novak and Jim Butcher, with Osho and Cameron in the morning self-help section. I've been writing more and more than any time in the past 17 years, and taking it seriously enough to merit constant rewrites and attention.
My life's golden. My life's great. I hope you've all been okay and I hope to see more of you over the next several months.
Livejournal to me was always the place for longer, more thoughtful commentary. It was a place to put out ideas for discussion and serious matters that required consideration. It was also the place where I met so many great people.
And I miss those people! I miss all of you, even the ones I do still see on Twitter, on Facebook, etc. I miss reading the longer entries and giving things more careful attention.
The past several months have been absolutely mind-blowing in terms of growth and expansion. I've been re-learning so many of the things that used to bring me joy and re-integrating them into my life, sometimes over the objections of people whose opinion matters a lot to me. I was never good at asserting myself around my loved ones - I could do it with people I didn't care about, but people I love have historically been more important than me to my mind. That's changing. That's changing a lot.
You guys, I'm cooking. I've made four new salsas in the past week alone, each of them devoured by neighbors and relatives. I've taught myself how to cut up a whole chicken rather than relying on boneless, skinless breasts. I've made barbecue rubs, mops, and sauces. I've got a new grill the size of a Chevy, just for me.
I can't tell you how much I love it. Five hours in the kitchen is a fecking wonderful afternoon, chopping and dicing and moving. I've always loved it, but I always sucked at it, because I never paid enough attention to what I was doing. Now I'm noticing where the fat separates from the tendon, how the addition of one less lime would increase the flavor, why I don't want to sauce things too early.
I'm reading again. Right now it's Naomi Novak and Jim Butcher, with Osho and Cameron in the morning self-help section. I've been writing more and more than any time in the past 17 years, and taking it seriously enough to merit constant rewrites and attention.
My life's golden. My life's great. I hope you've all been okay and I hope to see more of you over the next several months.