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I seriously think I have a sleeping problem...no matter how much or how little I sleep, I am ALWAYS tired. Even though most days I wake up before 8am, I cannot help but sleep until 1 or 2pm on days I don't have to work. What is wrong with me?! Why is it that everyone else in the world can create normal sleeping patterns but I'm stuck being exhausted all the time. I guarantee you it's all the caffeine I drink during the day.....keeps me up past 1am most nights. I deserve this, I'm sure.
Things with my mom have been awful. I can't even explain it but just trust me when I say I'm a really strong person. I never had that transition phase between child and adult...I had to jump straight from kid to taking care of the things my mom used to---ie: grocery shopping, dishes, clothes shopping for my brothers, cooking, laundry etc etc.. It's miserable.
On Saturday I went out with Erin, Alix and a bunch of Erin's girlfriends for halloween. I got my hair and makeup done b/c I was going as Shirley Temple and I knew I would not have the patience to curl my hair. Everything turned out awesome and I had sooooo much fun. Anytime Erin and I get together it's a pretty much done deal that we're going to get a bit out of control. I love it. I can't wait until she and I got to San Diego for a few days in December but I really wish she was coming with me to Vegas in 2 weeks!
Speaking of which..... Matt and I are going to Vegas. A bunch of my friends were supposed to go, but as per usual, most bailed. Ashley and her new boyfriend are meeting us there on Friday but other than that, it's just Matt and I. Things have been fine between us, nothing major to report on but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a bit annoyed with him. His best friend Dan moved back here from Denver and they have been spending ALL of their time together over a month now. Anytime Matt calls me, he is sitting right next to Dan---I end up feeling like Matt is talking to me like he is putting on a show for Dan, trying to make him laugh and stuff. It's so fucking annoying. In fact, Dan is one of the only friends of Matt's that and I like and because he is around all the time (which is Matt's fault, not his) I am beginning to hate even hearing his name! Matt even brought up bringing Dan to my birthday party in FEBRUARY---what the fuck?! Matt had gotten in a great habit of calling me every day, even if it was just for a few minutes and now because Dan is back, he's kinda fallen out of that..... he calls for a few minutes, when Dan is stupid around, once every other day or so for the past two weeks. It's driving me insane. I appreciate that Matt feels comfortable enough to call me and talk sweetly to me while Dan is around bc it shows Matt isn't hiding anything but still... give a girl her space! Drives me insane. I'm also beginning to think he calls sometimes when Dan is around b/c he knows I might get mad about something he has to tell me. For instance, today he called me while Dan was in the car and told me that last night he went out partying for Halloween, even though he was supposed to be studying b/c he has fallen so behind in school, and went with a girl that he used to work with FOUR years ago---a girl I don't know, a girl I didn't know he kept in touch with, and a girl who has random friends that went out with them. I was so annoyed. All I said was "Oh so did you guys wear a couples costume?"---had Dan not been in the car with him I probably would have ripped him a new one considering he said one of the main reasons he hasn't had time to call is b/c he has to study so mcuh-----ummm since when is dressing up as Peter Parker studying?!?!?!?! Annoyed. Not only that, I couldn't believe he hasn't called hundreds of times considering the shit that has gone down with my mom this past week. He was there for me the first night and stayed on the phone with me for hours...actually until like 4am even though he had class int he morning. That was really nice. But he hasn't really called to check in or anything since....just casual comments "How's your mom? Good? Okay." and that will be the end of it----ALSO b/c Dan is always fucking around. VOMIT. OH and that hooker he dated for 3 seconds who started emailing me when he dumped her wrote a comment on his facebook wall MINUTES after I wrote "Vegas in two weeks!" on it. She wrote this "Mathew James Thompson, It was wonderful to hear your beautiful voice today, but sorry, I still miss your dog more. Sorry Bud. Love, Jaclyn Marie PS. Expect some drunk dials this weekend ;)" It made me want to barf. The girl is psycho.
Ahhh...annoyed. Oh and I take the GRE next weekend. I have barely studied. I'm screwing up my life I'm sure. AND I'm fat....I cannot gain the willpower to stop eating. I wanted to lose like 10 lbs before Vegas and I swear to god it's my bodies goal to GAIN 10 lbs before Vegas. I don't know what is wrong with me...
okay...now I think I have worked myself into tears. Bye.
Things with my mom have been awful. I can't even explain it but just trust me when I say I'm a really strong person. I never had that transition phase between child and adult...I had to jump straight from kid to taking care of the things my mom used to---ie: grocery shopping, dishes, clothes shopping for my brothers, cooking, laundry etc etc.. It's miserable.
On Saturday I went out with Erin, Alix and a bunch of Erin's girlfriends for halloween. I got my hair and makeup done b/c I was going as Shirley Temple and I knew I would not have the patience to curl my hair. Everything turned out awesome and I had sooooo much fun. Anytime Erin and I get together it's a pretty much done deal that we're going to get a bit out of control. I love it. I can't wait until she and I got to San Diego for a few days in December but I really wish she was coming with me to Vegas in 2 weeks!
Speaking of which..... Matt and I are going to Vegas. A bunch of my friends were supposed to go, but as per usual, most bailed. Ashley and her new boyfriend are meeting us there on Friday but other than that, it's just Matt and I. Things have been fine between us, nothing major to report on but I'd be lying if I said I wasn't a bit annoyed with him. His best friend Dan moved back here from Denver and they have been spending ALL of their time together over a month now. Anytime Matt calls me, he is sitting right next to Dan---I end up feeling like Matt is talking to me like he is putting on a show for Dan, trying to make him laugh and stuff. It's so fucking annoying. In fact, Dan is one of the only friends of Matt's that and I like and because he is around all the time (which is Matt's fault, not his) I am beginning to hate even hearing his name! Matt even brought up bringing Dan to my birthday party in FEBRUARY---what the fuck?! Matt had gotten in a great habit of calling me every day, even if it was just for a few minutes and now because Dan is back, he's kinda fallen out of that..... he calls for a few minutes, when Dan is stupid around, once every other day or so for the past two weeks. It's driving me insane. I appreciate that Matt feels comfortable enough to call me and talk sweetly to me while Dan is around bc it shows Matt isn't hiding anything but still... give a girl her space! Drives me insane. I'm also beginning to think he calls sometimes when Dan is around b/c he knows I might get mad about something he has to tell me. For instance, today he called me while Dan was in the car and told me that last night he went out partying for Halloween, even though he was supposed to be studying b/c he has fallen so behind in school, and went with a girl that he used to work with FOUR years ago---a girl I don't know, a girl I didn't know he kept in touch with, and a girl who has random friends that went out with them. I was so annoyed. All I said was "Oh so did you guys wear a couples costume?"---had Dan not been in the car with him I probably would have ripped him a new one considering he said one of the main reasons he hasn't had time to call is b/c he has to study so mcuh-----ummm since when is dressing up as Peter Parker studying?!?!?!?! Annoyed. Not only that, I couldn't believe he hasn't called hundreds of times considering the shit that has gone down with my mom this past week. He was there for me the first night and stayed on the phone with me for hours...actually until like 4am even though he had class int he morning. That was really nice. But he hasn't really called to check in or anything since....just casual comments "How's your mom? Good? Okay." and that will be the end of it----ALSO b/c Dan is always fucking around. VOMIT. OH and that hooker he dated for 3 seconds who started emailing me when he dumped her wrote a comment on his facebook wall MINUTES after I wrote "Vegas in two weeks!" on it. She wrote this "Mathew James Thompson, It was wonderful to hear your beautiful voice today, but sorry, I still miss your dog more. Sorry Bud. Love, Jaclyn Marie PS. Expect some drunk dials this weekend ;)" It made me want to barf. The girl is psycho.
Ahhh...annoyed. Oh and I take the GRE next weekend. I have barely studied. I'm screwing up my life I'm sure. AND I'm fat....I cannot gain the willpower to stop eating. I wanted to lose like 10 lbs before Vegas and I swear to god it's my bodies goal to GAIN 10 lbs before Vegas. I don't know what is wrong with me...
okay...now I think I have worked myself into tears. Bye.