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My life is sooo freaking confusing right now and it's driving me insane...the questions rolling around in my head are making me nauseous. sp. Ugh. Friday I told Matt he could come over to pick up some chairs, sheets, towels etc that I told him he could have for his new apartment.... it was supposed to be a short visit which turned into lunch and then turned into me going to his house and then moving him into his apartment. I spent over 9 hours with him. HE was acting like we were all coupley again....calling me by our pet names (which he hasn't done since we broke up over a year ago)... it was weird. I just decided to go with the flow and not question anything but you can imagine the insane shit going on in my head considering 3 months ago Matt was telling me he didn't want to date me or talk to me that much anymore. Umm ya...imagine my surprise when Saturday rolls around and I get a phone call asking me to go visit him at work at Bogarts on Sunday and have a drink with him. I declined. I got a text later Sunday night asking me AGAIN to go visit him at work. I ended up just staying home. He and I went to dinner and the Sox game on Monday and I spent the night at his apartment. Ya. I talked to him once yesterday and then he texted me last night b/c I guess he went to the Sox game again with his aunt. I don't know. I'm so confused. Do I ask him all the questions I have?! or do I let it all go and just go with the flow? Alix told me if I ask him I'm going to get the same answers I got 3 months ago.... but 3 months ago we were fighting all the time and he was never calling me "babe" or holding my hand...and now he IS. Something must havechanged over the past couple months... but now I'm just nervous and confused and I'm so afraid I'm excited for no reason. I don't know what to do. I should have just kept on ignoring him so I wouldn't have to worry about any of this mess and now I'm just....blahhhh
Ugh... anyway, I'm babysitting right now and then going to my brothers baseball game. Last night after I got home from work I was supposed to go home and shower and go to Woodhollow but i PASSED out at like 9 and didn't wake up until 8 this morning. Insane. I'm still sooo tired. Izzie and I are watching movies and I keep falling asleep!
Anyway, gonna cook her lunch.
Bye.
ugh.