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It's over. We ended it.
I'm incredibly sad over it but I think, know, I'll be okay. I've only cried a few times and for me, that's pretty excellent.
I'm more upset that I let him become my best friend... not only am I losing a boyfriend but I've lost my best best best friend. I'm definitely upset because my heart will never be whole again and some man who deserves to have my whole heart won't ever be able to have it. I'm forever bruised and broken. Damaged goods.
"....if you can't handle me at my worst then you sure as hell don't deserve my best...."
I also really fucking hate how boys make it look like break ups are easy!....but this time Matt actually cried a few times, so I trust he cares but I know it's only a matter of time before he starts dating someone else and I get depressed over that.
I hate this. I'm never falling in love again.
I'm incredibly sad over it but I think, know, I'll be okay. I've only cried a few times and for me, that's pretty excellent.
I'm more upset that I let him become my best friend... not only am I losing a boyfriend but I've lost my best best best friend. I'm definitely upset because my heart will never be whole again and some man who deserves to have my whole heart won't ever be able to have it. I'm forever bruised and broken. Damaged goods.
"....if you can't handle me at my worst then you sure as hell don't deserve my best...."
I also really fucking hate how boys make it look like break ups are easy!....but this time Matt actually cried a few times, so I trust he cares but I know it's only a matter of time before he starts dating someone else and I get depressed over that.
I hate this. I'm never falling in love again.