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So last night I treated myself to a banana split. No good reason. I felt like spoiling myself for not buying cigarettes I guess.
Today my dad called me, and he told me he's back goin to meetings. He's relapsed twice recently b/c his friend Henry overdosed on Heroin and he's been really really down about it. :-/ I told him, the other day that I was really upset that he did that, and I hope he gets better again. He told me that Im the reason he's still alive, and it made me cry. He told me that he wants to get a penant that says Zoe means Life. Because that really is what it means, and to him thats a really big deal. My dad can be a really big asshole, but he means so much to me.. After all those years he didnt talk to me, youd think I wouldnt be talkin to him right now, as my brother is doing.. Im glad I do, I dont know what would happen if I didnt. He told me he wants to call my Grandpa, who I got into a fight with and hasnt talked to me in months, and tell him that His(my g-pa's) reason for living, was to make my father who made me.. and thats a big deal, So my dad says. He said that Im really goin to be someone who makes a turn in the world and really become something. He said my Grandpa should realize that, and not be such an asshole. So really, my Dad made me feel great today, Ive never had anyone say something to me like that and it made me feel so good. Im glad I mean that much to him, to be the reason someone still breathes. Im glad I have my dad.
Im still crying.
I hope everyone realizes that Im sure they mean just as much as that to someone else. Each person is someone else's reason to live. I Love Love, it really is what makes this world go 'round.
Today my dad called me, and he told me he's back goin to meetings. He's relapsed twice recently b/c his friend Henry overdosed on Heroin and he's been really really down about it. :-/ I told him, the other day that I was really upset that he did that, and I hope he gets better again. He told me that Im the reason he's still alive, and it made me cry. He told me that he wants to get a penant that says Zoe means Life. Because that really is what it means, and to him thats a really big deal. My dad can be a really big asshole, but he means so much to me.. After all those years he didnt talk to me, youd think I wouldnt be talkin to him right now, as my brother is doing.. Im glad I do, I dont know what would happen if I didnt. He told me he wants to call my Grandpa, who I got into a fight with and hasnt talked to me in months, and tell him that His(my g-pa's) reason for living, was to make my father who made me.. and thats a big deal, So my dad says. He said that Im really goin to be someone who makes a turn in the world and really become something. He said my Grandpa should realize that, and not be such an asshole. So really, my Dad made me feel great today, Ive never had anyone say something to me like that and it made me feel so good. Im glad I mean that much to him, to be the reason someone still breathes. Im glad I have my dad.
Im still crying.
I hope everyone realizes that Im sure they mean just as much as that to someone else. Each person is someone else's reason to live. I Love Love, it really is what makes this world go 'round.