Lost chances hurt the same as a mistake.
Hi, everybody~!
Long time without posting... Meh, I was grounded, and lately, my inspiration had been gone. Ana had it, I'm sure of it u.ú
But do you know something? Even if I'm not inspired, the need to write is still there, and it huuurts... So I wrote in the school. The last week I wrote three pages, which I'm going to scan and put on here. Today I wrote another one, which I'll transcribe for today entry.
And it is as it follows:
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Although I got my internet back, writing is still a necessity. It's the only way I can let my feelings out. Why don't I talk with someone? I want to, but there's a problem: I don't know how.
Have I told you I love you? That I still love you? Maybe. And I'm so afraid of what do you feel for me. Because I'm afraid to discover that you don't care for me anymore.
Lately, I don't know. You're making evident you're in love with someone, and I don't want to think it's with me, because probably I'd be falling in an illusion.
Hoe~ why everything has to be so complicated? Even if I do realize that other persons are more unlucky than I am, I still wish life was simpler. I... I think I should just give this and the other page to youy, but I know I don't have the courage to do it. As I already said, probably no one is going to read this ever. And by no one, I mean someone who can recognize who I'm writing to.
I'm going to write something I was saving for a secret, but who cares?
When I'm feeling alone, I imagine you're with me. And that thought cheers me up. Because your sole presence makes me feel a lot better.
I miss my best friend. I want at least to have that part of our relationship back. The Book Fair is my hope.
Yeah, that was all. It looked longer in paper, I swear! But that may be because my handwriting is SO round and big xD I still like my handwriting though. It used to be horrible, so I think it's a progress, and a big one. You'll see my handwriting, I sweear~ I'll scan tonight to post tomorrow :)
And finally, I wanted to say something I was thinking about in the morning. Voice is an useful tool, so is the brush and the pencil. But my favorite tool is the PEN. Why? Because it takes too much practice to be able to handle it correctly, and to be able to transmit emotions with written words. That's why my dream is to be a recognized writer, because in a way, it would be like reaching perfection.
That's all :)
Long time without posting... Meh, I was grounded, and lately, my inspiration had been gone. Ana had it, I'm sure of it u.ú
But do you know something? Even if I'm not inspired, the need to write is still there, and it huuurts... So I wrote in the school. The last week I wrote three pages, which I'm going to scan and put on here. Today I wrote another one, which I'll transcribe for today entry.
And it is as it follows:
Untitled
Although I got my internet back, writing is still a necessity. It's the only way I can let my feelings out. Why don't I talk with someone? I want to, but there's a problem: I don't know how.
Have I told you I love you? That I still love you? Maybe. And I'm so afraid of what do you feel for me. Because I'm afraid to discover that you don't care for me anymore.
Lately, I don't know. You're making evident you're in love with someone, and I don't want to think it's with me, because probably I'd be falling in an illusion.
Hoe~ why everything has to be so complicated? Even if I do realize that other persons are more unlucky than I am, I still wish life was simpler. I... I think I should just give this and the other page to youy, but I know I don't have the courage to do it. As I already said, probably no one is going to read this ever. And by no one, I mean someone who can recognize who I'm writing to.
I'm going to write something I was saving for a secret, but who cares?
When I'm feeling alone, I imagine you're with me. And that thought cheers me up. Because your sole presence makes me feel a lot better.
I miss my best friend. I want at least to have that part of our relationship back. The Book Fair is my hope.
Yeah, that was all. It looked longer in paper, I swear! But that may be because my handwriting is SO round and big xD I still like my handwriting though. It used to be horrible, so I think it's a progress, and a big one. You'll see my handwriting, I sweear~ I'll scan tonight to post tomorrow :)
And finally, I wanted to say something I was thinking about in the morning. Voice is an useful tool, so is the brush and the pencil. But my favorite tool is the PEN. Why? Because it takes too much practice to be able to handle it correctly, and to be able to transmit emotions with written words. That's why my dream is to be a recognized writer, because in a way, it would be like reaching perfection.
That's all :)