Aug 11, 2005 23:57
my friends suck.
like a lot.
theres only a select few that i always wanna be around.
i want a boyfriend.
but i want it to be someone worth having.
which means my standards are set rlyrly high.
i want something back i'll never ever get back.
i miss old times with a lot of people.
i wish i was 5 again.
a fat little five yr old.
im hungry.
ive been getting jealous really easily.
of everyone &everything.
even people i never thought i'd get jealous of.
ever.
i feel like ive been faking being happy lately.
but, hey, if it's working.
im trying to be strong.
but i cave a lot.
a lot.
ive been doing a good job of not letting people see though.
i feel so just, blah, right now.
and depressed.
and i feel like theres nothing that can make it better.
like at all.
no guy,
no nothing.
well..
ugh, idk.
i want it to go away.
like now.
and im just so confused too.
OHMIGOSH HELP ME PLZ
why are things so difficult?
whywhywhywhy
yes, im definitely pmsing.
ugh.