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Sometimes opportunities arise that feel almost necessary to take, even if it takes setting aside things you've grown accustomed to. That statement may seem ordinary and obvious but it takes different stances when it pertains to certain things. Of course this is obvious too. But then you find yourself in a situation and realize it's difficult to go with your instincts when they seem to be taking a different turn, a turn strange and unusual to you - "so unlike you". Or is it? Could your instincts be strange to you when their yours? Is sometimes following your instincts strange because you don't exactly know how to define "instinct" therefore you feel disconnected from it? - In turn feeling disconnected from yourself. Then suddenly, because of this newfound awareness of what seems like loss of control, options seem farfetched, unattainable. Decisions then become based on this idea that there really is no decision to make now that all other options have been cancelled out by pure hopelessness. Many may find themselves vulnerable in cases like this and choose the option which seems easier, more "right" - even if it means ignoring their instincts - because sometimes it's easier to not swallow your pride.
And there's the sound of a door creaking open with its ancient hinges and its untouched doorknob. When we finally open this door we wonder why we never opened it before. But of course, we know why it had stayed closed for so long and that doesn't matter now. What matters now is that the door is there, open, waiting ... and why not step through when we are also there, open, and waiting. Isn't it a wonder how we are all interconnected? How can it be that when you don't know someone and you can look into their eyes and feel a magnetic pull - a connection so indescribable, a connection a roomful of people can feel as well. A connection among the ones who know. And these people who know...no, they don't understand this connection to its fullest. So how could they be classified as those who know if they...don't know? It's just...it. It's an unspoken thing. There's nothing to know yet so much to know. It is left unlabeled. If you put one label on it, then it can't be labeled another thing. It's noticed in the eyes, it fills the air, it is unavoidable. It is the experience of a lifetime that lasts a lifetime.