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my whole life is a fucking joke,

where everyone else has the last laugh.

I've had enough.
I just want to go back.
I just want to be miserable, but not so fucking alone.
I just want everything to be defined and constant and overwhelmingly predictable.
I just want you to say 'I told you so' and degrade me.
I just want to be ignored and unappreciated.
I just want everything I can never ever have.

I just want my fucking disgrace of a life back, because even though it wasn't a fucking walk in the park, it was far better than this will ever be.

I'm so goddamn lonesome...
and you won't ever care.

I'd do anything to fill it in,
but nothing has ever compensated.

please just tell me you hurt too. please just tell me anything. please just tell me.