Decadent Anorexia....

[itwaslikedieing]

I know, I know it is a bad disease...it will mess you up, but it is such a tempting peach in the desert of fatness. I mean, it would work if done correctly. Of course it would not be straight up Anorexia, but a mutant spawn of it. Eat next to nothing but enough to keep the systems from damaging themselves. I suppose this is just impossible wishful thinking because if it were possible, girls most likely would have succumbed to the healthier form of self deprivation . What can I say, Im'ma dreamer. I have seriously weighed the pro's and con's of becoming an "Anorexian" and so far the con's have stopped me. Death is not someone I want to flirt with. Although, he is a cutie. So, I will continue on the diet I am on, eat half of meals, drink water. It is working but so slow it drives me insane. I mean I need INSTANT results to make me happy, right now gratification. Which, I suppose has gotten me into the overweight mess to begin with. Yeah, I got home from the drudges of school not too long ago, Thank goodness! I hate that institution of learning, but it is oh so key to being worth a damn in the future. The reason I hate it is not, the learning in itself..I like to learn, but in the fact I am forced with the maggots of society and the snooty little douche bags for seven hours of my day, time I could spend learning on my own. Alas, I think I will stop this ranting before I am put away....
-Crystal-