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AHHH. god i hate seniors. i hate how they think they are wayyy better than us at the end of the year show. and that pisses me off. and one of them is being a wicked bitch to me and i have had enough.i know i will be sad when it comes time for the banquet, but for this weekend i know it will be hell. oh well.
but i have KRISTIN SMALLEY...and MARISA-i think--and ELLLLLLA:) haha how i love that girl. we have gotten a lot closer this year, and it sucks because i will probably not be here next year...and i will miss her sooo bad. she is kinda like me so i love being able to hang out with her. ELLA i loveee you.
Other than that i got knocked over. wicked pissed about that, i saw it coming and there was nothing i could do because i wasn't going to stop. and if you know me i'm not the type to sit on the ice and cry, so i got back up and got into line and kept going. didn't hurt until we stopped skating.booo. i know it will hurt tomorrow...oh well.
still veryyyy anxious about the letter. and Christine is very supportive...which might make this a little easier...i hope. but we'll see what happens. today we were standing there and ella asked me if i didnt make colonials if i was coming back...and christine was standing right there, and i'm not sure what i'm going to do, i know that if i didnt make colonials i couldnt just give up synchro. its who i am. and it is such a big part of my life. so i didnt really know what to say because i knew christine was waiting for me to answer so i just said i wasnt sure. and im not...but i guess i will be once i find out. so thats why i am really anxious...that and i reallly hope i make it. as much as i will miss everyone, its an experience that i really want to do. i dont know if i am going to tell everyone on wed. or not if i get it. i thought about saying a few things at the banquet...but its not my night...its the seniors, so i know i would get a lot of shit if i said something...like i was going to thank everyone and all that good stuff. but i think i am going to just write a card to christine and probably a few other people...sooo,yeah.
not much else to sayy. dont really wanna talk about school. i hate it.8th grade year this year is dumb.they are changing a bunch of things, and i am fed up with it, but whatever.
Kristin Smalley...i love you.thank you for just being there.
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but i have KRISTIN SMALLEY...and MARISA-i think--and ELLLLLLA:) haha how i love that girl. we have gotten a lot closer this year, and it sucks because i will probably not be here next year...and i will miss her sooo bad. she is kinda like me so i love being able to hang out with her. ELLA i loveee you.
Other than that i got knocked over. wicked pissed about that, i saw it coming and there was nothing i could do because i wasn't going to stop. and if you know me i'm not the type to sit on the ice and cry, so i got back up and got into line and kept going. didn't hurt until we stopped skating.booo. i know it will hurt tomorrow...oh well.
still veryyyy anxious about the letter. and Christine is very supportive...which might make this a little easier...i hope. but we'll see what happens. today we were standing there and ella asked me if i didnt make colonials if i was coming back...and christine was standing right there, and i'm not sure what i'm going to do, i know that if i didnt make colonials i couldnt just give up synchro. its who i am. and it is such a big part of my life. so i didnt really know what to say because i knew christine was waiting for me to answer so i just said i wasnt sure. and im not...but i guess i will be once i find out. so thats why i am really anxious...that and i reallly hope i make it. as much as i will miss everyone, its an experience that i really want to do. i dont know if i am going to tell everyone on wed. or not if i get it. i thought about saying a few things at the banquet...but its not my night...its the seniors, so i know i would get a lot of shit if i said something...like i was going to thank everyone and all that good stuff. but i think i am going to just write a card to christine and probably a few other people...sooo,yeah.
not much else to sayy. dont really wanna talk about school. i hate it.8th grade year this year is dumb.they are changing a bunch of things, and i am fed up with it, but whatever.
Kristin Smalley...i love you.thank you for just being there.
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