you're living...barely breathing
I find myself constantly spacing out lately..
thinking about things that are, things to come, how much things have changed
we're all growing up..we're all being forced to be adults..
I'm so excited and so nervous
turning 18 wasnt all I expected it to be
mostly because nothing is the way I planned..but nothing ever has gone as planned
I think the sooner I learn to be ok with that, the better off I will be..
Ryan and I have been together almost a year and I feel very lucky to have him
I just worry about us having opposite schedules for these next two years
I find myself worrying alot..to the point where I keep myself awake at night (like now for example)
I start my new job learning how to bartend tomorrow..
I'm nervous, but she claims it's gonna be pretty basic..
I just dont want to fuck up...
I'm getting my life back on track...
I've already taken the test to get my "diploma" and I get the results Sept. 1st
as soon as I have the results I can enroll at Valencia
until then I'm working hard and saving money
I'm happy with my life, but I know my whole world is about to change
I'm ready..I hope?
thinking about things that are, things to come, how much things have changed
we're all growing up..we're all being forced to be adults..
I'm so excited and so nervous
turning 18 wasnt all I expected it to be
mostly because nothing is the way I planned..but nothing ever has gone as planned
I think the sooner I learn to be ok with that, the better off I will be..
Ryan and I have been together almost a year and I feel very lucky to have him
I just worry about us having opposite schedules for these next two years
I find myself worrying alot..to the point where I keep myself awake at night (like now for example)
I start my new job learning how to bartend tomorrow..
I'm nervous, but she claims it's gonna be pretty basic..
I just dont want to fuck up...
I'm getting my life back on track...
I've already taken the test to get my "diploma" and I get the results Sept. 1st
as soon as I have the results I can enroll at Valencia
until then I'm working hard and saving money
I'm happy with my life, but I know my whole world is about to change
I'm ready..I hope?