one day i'm gonna lose the war
i feel like i havent written anything substantial in this for a while but i dont know really what to say...things have been weird lately. i'm trying to stay positive but it's hard with all this shit going on. i hate feeling like i do so much for people and i never get anything in return. whatever, im just going to keep on doing what i'm doing, hoping that someday it will come back to me. im honestly getting sick of working so much and being the bitch that does all the shitty cleaning jobs like fucking defrosting the ice cream freezer. so im done smoking for the time being, until i can pass a drug test. I have 3 weeks before my birthday to pass this test so i can use my car, it sucks having to rely on others for rides, but it just means i can drink as much as i want haha yay. i miss all the people but im not really in any huge rush to get back to school. there's still much more left to accomplish this summer at home.