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[itsuonlybetter]

Lately I feel like I haven't been productive. I am in my last few weeks of this semester and I am truly running out of gas. I work full time (again!) and taken on a second job of watching two kids in the mornings. I don't know what I am trying to accomplish... truly. I feel like I am crazy. Most people only work part time and take a full load or not work at all. I have two jobs. But, I also have a social life. I work on school stuff and I do my best. But, lately, I have been so unmotivated to do anything school related. I am truly loosing it now. I have some big things due in two weeks. I have a huge paper from my World Civ classes to do. I also have a speech to deliver two weeks from tomorrow. I have to finish up my portfolio for my Creative Writing class AND write a one act play by next Tuesday. Agh. AND, I haven't been showing up for my World Civ II class... I just don't feel motivated to. He talks about the same old shit that he did in World Civ I. So, today, instead of skipping World Civ II, I skipped World Civ I. Terrible, huh? I need to start on my art project asap because if I don't do well in that class, I will literally kill someone. No joke. I just feel so blah. I mean, I have a life and a job and happiness but when it comes to school I am just running out of energy. I know this is typical, but I have to admit that it also has to do with the drama in my life now. I really don't like drama. I am staying in Hawaii for another semester. Not only did my mum influence me to, but it also came to me that moving in three weeks would be uber hectic. Not smart at all. However, on the other hand, my mum finally told me today that she will truly try and help me find a ticket to Cali for the two weeks before Christmas. Which is awesome. Gives me hope. For sure. But, yeah... I need to focus on school for now and get done with this semester. So yeah, off to World Civ II! I have to do a presentation that I am not entirely ready for. Wish me luck! *sigh*

Yadadamean?~
Christine