fic:for you...(3/?)
"Okay,then I'm going to tell him." Nino turned his back on him, and made his way to door.
"No wait!" Aiba clung to his arm. "Oh-kun, MatsuJun, please tell him something?" Aiba asked, looking at them desperately.
"Sorry Aiba-san but I'm with him on this one," Jun said as he crossed his legs. Ohno just nodded his head in response, lost in his thoughts.
"How long do you plan to play this stupid role? If you’re his best friend, then you have to tell him the truth, you don’t even know for sure that he doesn’t like you…" Nino gently squeezed the hand on his arm.
"But…what if he doesn’t? I'm just going to ruin everything." Aiba sat on the floor, holding his head.
"Let me ask you something, don’t you want Sho to love you back?" Jun asked bluntly.
"What? What do you mean?" Aiba’s eyes widened to his question.
"What he mean is if you really love him, then stop making excuses, just face it, once and for all." Nino sat down beside Aiba.
"Even if he doesn’t like you back, you're going to be awkward with each other for a while, but slowly things will go back to normal. Your friendship is stronger than that. However, I have to say, he’s always different with you than when he’s with us." Jun sat on the other side of him.
"You really think so?" Aiba looked at both of them, hope sparkling in his eyes.
"Yeah." Nino kindly patted his back.
"But…but how? There is always something, I never get the chance to tell him.."
"Well leave that to us," Jun smiled.
"Thank you guys. I really love you," Aiba said as a teardrop rolled down his face.
"Why are we in storage room? Sho wasn’t in the green room, so why we didn’t use it?" Ohno blinked. He just got a glare from Jun and Nino,and a beautiful smile from Aiba.
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Aiba always knew he loved Sho,from the fisrt time they met each other, Sho held his hand in his strong, reassuring hand Aiba was captivated, he was always there beside him, without asking anything, without any reason, they have been always together, despite all the differences, together, like need of fish to the sea, but oh that fish don’t know what the sea had meant to it, till they take it away from it,then there is nothing left for that fish but death….when he read his letter,Aiba heard other crying, but Sho just listened to him,he knew all those horrible days had worth it, now that he could tell him how he felt, and when he dragged him into his embrace, he knew it was where he belonged, he felt safe there. But never dared to say to his best friend, how much he loved him,Sho was always so far away from him, out of his reach, he made himself believe that he was happy just by being in his presence, but the pain never left him...
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"Nothing?" Horizawa frowned to the answer.
"Yes sir,there was no sign of them. He’s wiser than we have thought."
"Then there is no choice, I have to contact him," he said while looking at Tokyo tower, enjoying the beauty of it.
"But…sir what if he doesn’t accept your offer…" Tanaka asked, unsure.
"If he’s as clever as you say, then he'll accept it. There isn’t anyone who doesn’t like money, but if he wants to act cool, and turn the money down, then…" he took his gaze from tower, slowly turning to tanaka and smiling as he continued…
"We can always attack his weak point." Tanaka saw the smile and fell silent. It was the smile that Showed nothing good come out of it.
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Sho looked at his trampled house in Shock. The only fortunate thing was that his mother wasn’t there to see it.
"Horizawa, you bastard." Sho gritted his teeth.
He knew he might do something like that. He was pleased that he was able to read that guy's moves. Sho's family was out of his reach, he hid the data perfectly where he knew no one could find them. And the last thing that was left…he wasn’t going to let him touch Aiba, no one would know about his love…
"Everything’s going to be fine," Sho murmured to himself, putting the books back into shelf.
Or that’s what he thought…
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"Sho-chan…ohayo." Sho closed his eyes, hearing his cheerful voice, but jerked up when he felt Aiba's hand on his Shoulder.
"Ohayo Aiba-san,sorry but I'm in a hurry, see you at the photo Shoot." Sho tried to leave the green room before Aiba was able to even put down his bag.
"Ano…Sho-chan, are you okay? You left the studio last night very early, is everything alright?" Aiba grabbed Sho's hand as he walked past him. But to his surprise, Sho pushed his hand away. He never did that before. This was the Sho who always squeezed Aiba's hand in response, making him sure that everything was fine.
"Yes, I'm fine, I just don’t want to be late." Giving him a faint smile, Sho left the room, leaving a stunned Aiba behind.
"He’s avoiding me." Aiba sat down beside Jun, staring at Sho.
"No he’s not, he’s busy. You're just worried about your confession so you’ve became a little sensitive," Jun explained, trying to reassure him.
"Today before going back home, we'll leave you two alone." Ohno stood in front of Aiba, stopping Aiba to keep staring at him.
"And you better not mess it up, or your going to answer to me." Nino held Ohno from behind, Showing Aiba his death glare.
"Ha…hai." It was all Aiba could tell them, still worried about Sho’s earlier behavior.
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Sho was having the hardest time of his life, having Aiba beside him but unable to talk to him or face him. He missed Aiba’s touch so much, hearing his laugh but he unable to look at his bright smile. It was like hell to him.
"Just a little bit more, just a little bit more, and then it all will be over" Sho went berserk trying to keep repeating those words to control himself, fighting with the urge to be beside Aiba. How hard it was for him to push him away, to push away the warm hand that always made him calm, the hand he wished to hold, kiss...The kind hands that brought him peace.
"Sakurai-san, its your turn." One of the staff brought him back from his thoughts.
Sho felt Aiba’s gaze on himself, moved closer to Jun to avoid his usual place beside Aiba.avoiding the hurt look in his beloved eyes, avoiding the pain his own heart.
"Its all for the best" He thought as he got himself further from Aiba, preventing himself from any unnecessary moves.
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Sho looked around the green room for his book angrily. He had asked his band mates for help 10 times the 5 minutes he had been there.
"Oh no, he's going to finish at any moment, I have to find it now, before he come here..."
"Satoshi-kun,have you seen--"
"Sorry Sho-kun, gotta go. Nino, I'm waiting for you in the car,"Ohno said,leaving in hurry To get the book that Nino hand him earlier out of room, he was Followed by Jun.
"Jun-kun.." Sho looked at him desperately but it was bad luck for him because Jun was in his DoS mood. Or at least that’s what he Showed, because he only waved his hand dismissively as he left the room.
"AAaaHH, where is it?! Nino can you help--" Sho almost begged Nino. He was running out of time, at any moment Aiba was going to come back.
"Sorry, Oh-chan’s waiting for me in the car." And for the second time that day they had cut him off, leaving his request mid-air.
"Ask Aiba…"Nino Shout at Sho,while grinning to the figure that he became face to face in his way out.
"We did our part, now its your chance." He whispered to Aiba, who was looking at him with anxiety in his eyes, as Nino ran out of room leaving the two of them behind.
Aiba gulped, getting himself ready. Putting on his bright smile.
"Sho-chan, what your looking for? Can I help you?" Aiba asked happily, trying to smooth out the awkward situation.
"No, its fine, I think I'll look for it tomorrow, good bye Aiba-san." Sho said it almost coldly, as he walk to the door. But to his surprise Aiba blocked his way.
"Sho-chan, there is something that I need to talk to you about." Aiba gathered up his courage as he closed the door behind himself, looking at Sho shyly.
"Please make it Short Aiba-san, I need to get home," Sho said calmly, but his heart was beating like crazy.
"Sho…Errr…for so long I wanted to tell you this, I was always afraid, but I can't hold it any longer…" Aiba took his gaze from his Shoes and looked into Sho's eyes directly.
It's now or never...he thought.
"I…I love you Sho, I have always loved you, and I hope that you like me too, even if it’s a little, that’s okay, I can wait till…" Now word just kept coming from his mouth, he was unable to control himself.
Sho felt his heart at the bottom of his stomach. He was so happy hearing those words, he wanted to Shout that he loved him too, much more than Aiba had loved him. He took a step, to hold him, to kiss those lips that told him loved him. But then he remembered again, this wasn't the time for it, he had to drag himself out of his beautiful dream…
Im sorry Aiba-san,but I don’t have those feelings for you,
”im love you too”
I just see you as a friend…
“there is nothing in this world that I want more than you, having you for myself is my dream….”
Aiba just froze, wishing to hear the words he was longing for all this time, but this wasn’t his dream…it was the nightmare …
"But you…" Sho raised his hand in front of his face, preventing him from talking.
“I know what you have thought, if you think why Im different with you,”
“im different with you cause you’re so special to me”
“its just because I thought you always need help”
“its just because being with you is my happiness”
“,im sorry if it made a wrong impression on you,and made you think that I have some feeling about you…”
“IDO,I do have feelings for you…I can’t live without you...if only you knew how much you mean to me…”his heart screamed
Sho smiled at him coldly, and he saw…he saw how his love broke in front of him, he was hurt as much as Aiba was, but he had to protect him, whatever it meant for him to do that.
"I see…" Aiba murmured. He felt tears forming in his eyes, but he hardly hold onto himself. His heart shattered into pieces in his chest.
"Well, sorry for bothering you, I'm such a fool, always making trouble for you," Aiba apologized. Sho closed his eyes, he wanted to ran away, to tell Asami and Horizawa that he will leave everything, just to be able to hold this man in his arms, to tell him he loves him. But he came all this way, now he couldn’t go back. He must go on.
"I hope what I have said doesn’t affect our friendship. Let’s forget about all of it." Sho heard Aiba's despair in his forced laugh.
"See you tomorrow Sho-san." Aiba closed the door behind him, letting his tears to drop on the ground.
"Sho…san," Sho whispered, kneeling on the ground as the door closed infront of him.
"Masaki, please for forgive me, I love you too, I love you so much, but protecting you is more important than my feelings." Sho hid his face in his hands, finally letting his tears to palliate him.
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Aiba didn’t know how he got himself to his house. How was he ever able to put together his broken heart?!
"But at least now I know, he never was going to be mine…" He took his head from the steering wheel, wiping his teary eyes as he opened his car door, looking at his dark,empty apartment.
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"Sakurai-san?! Are you there?" Sho heard the door knock he was still In the green room, reluctant opened the door to their camera-man.
"Yes?" He saw an envelop in his hand,made him curious.
"A man dropped by 5 minutes ago, leaving this for you I couldn’t get his name though, the instant I looked at the envelop, he was vanished." The camera-man handed him the yellow envelope and left the room.
"Thank you…" Sho suspiciously looked at it, but when he saw the little H in the corner of it, he hurriedly opened it…
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"Excuse me sir…" Aiba was locking his car that jerked from the voice he heard from behind, turning back to him, tried to wipe his tears that wouldn't stop pouring out.
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Sho tired to open the envelope as fast as he could.
"Why is my hand trembling like this….?!" He pulled out what was in the envelope.looking at bunch of photos.
His eyes widened in horror as he looked at them.
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"Yes? How can I help you?" Aiba forced a smiled, trying figure out the face of the man in the shadow…
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Sho dashed out of room, running to his car, crumbling the pictures in his hand. He put his feet on the accelerator with all his might and he drove like a maniac.
“Oh god, please don’t let it be too late…”Sho said as he tried to dial his number…
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Aiba looked at the man kindly, waiting for his response that heard his phone ringed, but before he was able to reach for it…suddenly he heard a small thump, a sharp pain on the back of his head, before the world went blank…
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He quickly glanced at the photos of Aiba and him which he threw on the passenger seat beside him. The photos were of when Aiba put his arm around Sho's Shoulder in green room hallway, there was one where Sho pinned him to the wall, and him and Aiba at the…those pictures wasn’t only of him and Aiba, it was like who ever took their pictures had captured Sho’s love for him, the zeal in his eyes was so strong...
Sho drived with his full speed, cursing every car that got on his way, dialing his number constantly…
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But before he was able to get there, the black van with Aiba inside had already left.
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Note:so this is chap3 ^___^,I decided to don’t talk much on my NOTEs so that i bore you ^__________^,so I just say hope you like it ^__^,and like always I appreciate your comments, they really giving me encouragement to write <3
"No wait!" Aiba clung to his arm. "Oh-kun, MatsuJun, please tell him something?" Aiba asked, looking at them desperately.
"Sorry Aiba-san but I'm with him on this one," Jun said as he crossed his legs. Ohno just nodded his head in response, lost in his thoughts.
"How long do you plan to play this stupid role? If you’re his best friend, then you have to tell him the truth, you don’t even know for sure that he doesn’t like you…" Nino gently squeezed the hand on his arm.
"But…what if he doesn’t? I'm just going to ruin everything." Aiba sat on the floor, holding his head.
"Let me ask you something, don’t you want Sho to love you back?" Jun asked bluntly.
"What? What do you mean?" Aiba’s eyes widened to his question.
"What he mean is if you really love him, then stop making excuses, just face it, once and for all." Nino sat down beside Aiba.
"Even if he doesn’t like you back, you're going to be awkward with each other for a while, but slowly things will go back to normal. Your friendship is stronger than that. However, I have to say, he’s always different with you than when he’s with us." Jun sat on the other side of him.
"You really think so?" Aiba looked at both of them, hope sparkling in his eyes.
"Yeah." Nino kindly patted his back.
"But…but how? There is always something, I never get the chance to tell him.."
"Well leave that to us," Jun smiled.
"Thank you guys. I really love you," Aiba said as a teardrop rolled down his face.
"Why are we in storage room? Sho wasn’t in the green room, so why we didn’t use it?" Ohno blinked. He just got a glare from Jun and Nino,and a beautiful smile from Aiba.
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Aiba always knew he loved Sho,from the fisrt time they met each other, Sho held his hand in his strong, reassuring hand Aiba was captivated, he was always there beside him, without asking anything, without any reason, they have been always together, despite all the differences, together, like need of fish to the sea, but oh that fish don’t know what the sea had meant to it, till they take it away from it,then there is nothing left for that fish but death….when he read his letter,Aiba heard other crying, but Sho just listened to him,he knew all those horrible days had worth it, now that he could tell him how he felt, and when he dragged him into his embrace, he knew it was where he belonged, he felt safe there. But never dared to say to his best friend, how much he loved him,Sho was always so far away from him, out of his reach, he made himself believe that he was happy just by being in his presence, but the pain never left him...
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"Nothing?" Horizawa frowned to the answer.
"Yes sir,there was no sign of them. He’s wiser than we have thought."
"Then there is no choice, I have to contact him," he said while looking at Tokyo tower, enjoying the beauty of it.
"But…sir what if he doesn’t accept your offer…" Tanaka asked, unsure.
"If he’s as clever as you say, then he'll accept it. There isn’t anyone who doesn’t like money, but if he wants to act cool, and turn the money down, then…" he took his gaze from tower, slowly turning to tanaka and smiling as he continued…
"We can always attack his weak point." Tanaka saw the smile and fell silent. It was the smile that Showed nothing good come out of it.
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Sho looked at his trampled house in Shock. The only fortunate thing was that his mother wasn’t there to see it.
"Horizawa, you bastard." Sho gritted his teeth.
He knew he might do something like that. He was pleased that he was able to read that guy's moves. Sho's family was out of his reach, he hid the data perfectly where he knew no one could find them. And the last thing that was left…he wasn’t going to let him touch Aiba, no one would know about his love…
"Everything’s going to be fine," Sho murmured to himself, putting the books back into shelf.
Or that’s what he thought…
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"Sho-chan…ohayo." Sho closed his eyes, hearing his cheerful voice, but jerked up when he felt Aiba's hand on his Shoulder.
"Ohayo Aiba-san,sorry but I'm in a hurry, see you at the photo Shoot." Sho tried to leave the green room before Aiba was able to even put down his bag.
"Ano…Sho-chan, are you okay? You left the studio last night very early, is everything alright?" Aiba grabbed Sho's hand as he walked past him. But to his surprise, Sho pushed his hand away. He never did that before. This was the Sho who always squeezed Aiba's hand in response, making him sure that everything was fine.
"Yes, I'm fine, I just don’t want to be late." Giving him a faint smile, Sho left the room, leaving a stunned Aiba behind.
"He’s avoiding me." Aiba sat down beside Jun, staring at Sho.
"No he’s not, he’s busy. You're just worried about your confession so you’ve became a little sensitive," Jun explained, trying to reassure him.
"Today before going back home, we'll leave you two alone." Ohno stood in front of Aiba, stopping Aiba to keep staring at him.
"And you better not mess it up, or your going to answer to me." Nino held Ohno from behind, Showing Aiba his death glare.
"Ha…hai." It was all Aiba could tell them, still worried about Sho’s earlier behavior.
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Sho was having the hardest time of his life, having Aiba beside him but unable to talk to him or face him. He missed Aiba’s touch so much, hearing his laugh but he unable to look at his bright smile. It was like hell to him.
"Just a little bit more, just a little bit more, and then it all will be over" Sho went berserk trying to keep repeating those words to control himself, fighting with the urge to be beside Aiba. How hard it was for him to push him away, to push away the warm hand that always made him calm, the hand he wished to hold, kiss...The kind hands that brought him peace.
"Sakurai-san, its your turn." One of the staff brought him back from his thoughts.
Sho felt Aiba’s gaze on himself, moved closer to Jun to avoid his usual place beside Aiba.avoiding the hurt look in his beloved eyes, avoiding the pain his own heart.
"Its all for the best" He thought as he got himself further from Aiba, preventing himself from any unnecessary moves.
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Sho looked around the green room for his book angrily. He had asked his band mates for help 10 times the 5 minutes he had been there.
"Oh no, he's going to finish at any moment, I have to find it now, before he come here..."
"Satoshi-kun,have you seen--"
"Sorry Sho-kun, gotta go. Nino, I'm waiting for you in the car,"Ohno said,leaving in hurry To get the book that Nino hand him earlier out of room, he was Followed by Jun.
"Jun-kun.." Sho looked at him desperately but it was bad luck for him because Jun was in his DoS mood. Or at least that’s what he Showed, because he only waved his hand dismissively as he left the room.
"AAaaHH, where is it?! Nino can you help--" Sho almost begged Nino. He was running out of time, at any moment Aiba was going to come back.
"Sorry, Oh-chan’s waiting for me in the car." And for the second time that day they had cut him off, leaving his request mid-air.
"Ask Aiba…"Nino Shout at Sho,while grinning to the figure that he became face to face in his way out.
"We did our part, now its your chance." He whispered to Aiba, who was looking at him with anxiety in his eyes, as Nino ran out of room leaving the two of them behind.
Aiba gulped, getting himself ready. Putting on his bright smile.
"Sho-chan, what your looking for? Can I help you?" Aiba asked happily, trying to smooth out the awkward situation.
"No, its fine, I think I'll look for it tomorrow, good bye Aiba-san." Sho said it almost coldly, as he walk to the door. But to his surprise Aiba blocked his way.
"Sho-chan, there is something that I need to talk to you about." Aiba gathered up his courage as he closed the door behind himself, looking at Sho shyly.
"Please make it Short Aiba-san, I need to get home," Sho said calmly, but his heart was beating like crazy.
"Sho…Errr…for so long I wanted to tell you this, I was always afraid, but I can't hold it any longer…" Aiba took his gaze from his Shoes and looked into Sho's eyes directly.
It's now or never...he thought.
"I…I love you Sho, I have always loved you, and I hope that you like me too, even if it’s a little, that’s okay, I can wait till…" Now word just kept coming from his mouth, he was unable to control himself.
Sho felt his heart at the bottom of his stomach. He was so happy hearing those words, he wanted to Shout that he loved him too, much more than Aiba had loved him. He took a step, to hold him, to kiss those lips that told him loved him. But then he remembered again, this wasn't the time for it, he had to drag himself out of his beautiful dream…
Im sorry Aiba-san,but I don’t have those feelings for you,
”im love you too”
I just see you as a friend…
“there is nothing in this world that I want more than you, having you for myself is my dream….”
Aiba just froze, wishing to hear the words he was longing for all this time, but this wasn’t his dream…it was the nightmare …
"But you…" Sho raised his hand in front of his face, preventing him from talking.
“I know what you have thought, if you think why Im different with you,”
“im different with you cause you’re so special to me”
“its just because I thought you always need help”
“its just because being with you is my happiness”
“,im sorry if it made a wrong impression on you,and made you think that I have some feeling about you…”
“IDO,I do have feelings for you…I can’t live without you...if only you knew how much you mean to me…”his heart screamed
Sho smiled at him coldly, and he saw…he saw how his love broke in front of him, he was hurt as much as Aiba was, but he had to protect him, whatever it meant for him to do that.
"I see…" Aiba murmured. He felt tears forming in his eyes, but he hardly hold onto himself. His heart shattered into pieces in his chest.
"Well, sorry for bothering you, I'm such a fool, always making trouble for you," Aiba apologized. Sho closed his eyes, he wanted to ran away, to tell Asami and Horizawa that he will leave everything, just to be able to hold this man in his arms, to tell him he loves him. But he came all this way, now he couldn’t go back. He must go on.
"I hope what I have said doesn’t affect our friendship. Let’s forget about all of it." Sho heard Aiba's despair in his forced laugh.
"See you tomorrow Sho-san." Aiba closed the door behind him, letting his tears to drop on the ground.
"Sho…san," Sho whispered, kneeling on the ground as the door closed infront of him.
"Masaki, please for forgive me, I love you too, I love you so much, but protecting you is more important than my feelings." Sho hid his face in his hands, finally letting his tears to palliate him.
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Aiba didn’t know how he got himself to his house. How was he ever able to put together his broken heart?!
"But at least now I know, he never was going to be mine…" He took his head from the steering wheel, wiping his teary eyes as he opened his car door, looking at his dark,empty apartment.
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"Sakurai-san?! Are you there?" Sho heard the door knock he was still In the green room, reluctant opened the door to their camera-man.
"Yes?" He saw an envelop in his hand,made him curious.
"A man dropped by 5 minutes ago, leaving this for you I couldn’t get his name though, the instant I looked at the envelop, he was vanished." The camera-man handed him the yellow envelope and left the room.
"Thank you…" Sho suspiciously looked at it, but when he saw the little H in the corner of it, he hurriedly opened it…
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"Excuse me sir…" Aiba was locking his car that jerked from the voice he heard from behind, turning back to him, tried to wipe his tears that wouldn't stop pouring out.
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Sho tired to open the envelope as fast as he could.
"Why is my hand trembling like this….?!" He pulled out what was in the envelope.looking at bunch of photos.
His eyes widened in horror as he looked at them.
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"Yes? How can I help you?" Aiba forced a smiled, trying figure out the face of the man in the shadow…
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Sho dashed out of room, running to his car, crumbling the pictures in his hand. He put his feet on the accelerator with all his might and he drove like a maniac.
“Oh god, please don’t let it be too late…”Sho said as he tried to dial his number…
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Aiba looked at the man kindly, waiting for his response that heard his phone ringed, but before he was able to reach for it…suddenly he heard a small thump, a sharp pain on the back of his head, before the world went blank…
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He quickly glanced at the photos of Aiba and him which he threw on the passenger seat beside him. The photos were of when Aiba put his arm around Sho's Shoulder in green room hallway, there was one where Sho pinned him to the wall, and him and Aiba at the…those pictures wasn’t only of him and Aiba, it was like who ever took their pictures had captured Sho’s love for him, the zeal in his eyes was so strong...
Sho drived with his full speed, cursing every car that got on his way, dialing his number constantly…
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But before he was able to get there, the black van with Aiba inside had already left.
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Note:so this is chap3 ^___^,I decided to don’t talk much on my NOTEs so that i bore you ^__________^,so I just say hope you like it ^__^,and like always I appreciate your comments, they really giving me encouragement to write <3