crying?

[itsukanomelody]

Today I've been crying because of him again.
But this time... I've been crying from laughter.

I think I was just reminded today, why and what for
I like him that much.

the emotions I have never felt are free when I'm with him. I cry because I'm sad, I shout because I'm angry, I swear, I kick, I hit, I fight, I am making him a viction of my sarcasm.

And I laugh.
I. Me. Myself.

I feel free when I'm with him.

It was so weird to have only the negative emotions lately; liking him and hating him at the same time.
Acting moody, acting pissed, ignoring, kicking, cutting him in halfword.

But..

Still.
It doens't make sense to me.

But at least now I'm awake. I've been hiding my emotions last few days way too much.
Not only about him
'cuz he is not my biggest problem ever. I mean, he's not a problem in the way you call it.

I can laugh again - again be my moody self that laughs, cries, gets pissed or happy with no reason. Goes crazy just because there is nothing else to do.
And he liked me like that. He'd always liked me like that.

Now I guess I know what he meant when I heard from him I have changed.
I need my emotional swing back; because as much as weird is that, I cannot seem to be happy without it.