Tired..
I went to practice and it was fun cause it wasnt that hott and i love my girls. After that i went to the dentist..NO CAVITIES..be jealous! Well im gonna get my gap fixed yo! FINALLY!! I HATED THAT SHIT! I got an appointment on aug.30th soo after that.. no more gap. I cant wait. idk..right now i feel like everything is so screwed up. Like i dont know what to do and i dont have time for anything or anyone right now. It feels like all i do is work. i work either 11-2 or 5-11 and sometimes both and maybe it doesnt seem like alot but it takes up so much time and the guys at my job really put alot of pressure on me and if i screw up just a little bit its like the end of the world. But dont get me wrong. They can be cool as shit sometimes and i'm not complaining about the money cause i do get paid alot and what not but sometimes it feels like just too much. Like before i started work it felt like i had nothing to do and i still had time for my freinds. Thats the biggest thing now. I feel like i dont have any more friends cause of work. I have weekends off but they usually get booked up quick and most of the time it isnt with things i truely want to do. Im so confused about a lot of things. Sometimes i just want to say fuck it and work and do what i have to like i dont need friends or anything. But i know i do. And when school starts its gonna be like that too. I would totally quit if i didn't need the money, but i do cause i want this year to be the year that everything starts. This year i want to get good grades. I want a steady GOOD relationship with an honest guy that i like and my parents like. I want to keep my job without overworking myself. I want to have at least two good freinds that i can tell everything to and that i can depend on. I need the job because i want to be able to get new clothes and dress how i want and when i want to go out on weekends i dont want to have to ask my parents for money. I want to be independent, but i guess i need to just wait it out and hope everything comes together like i want it to cause i really need everything to be okay. Well, i gotta work tomorow.. 11-2 then 5-11 this should be fun..so im going to sleep <33 Lovely