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god i am begining to hate savnnah ga more and more.... whenever i think something is gonna get good for me it suddenly turns to shit. im so pissed.. im so sick of being my moms D.D. every Friday..when I want to go out I can't because I am too busy babysitting her ass.. I am friggin 18 I didnt come up here to babysit.. I came up here bc my life was supposivley suppose to be better but it isnt.. I miss all my friends.. I had something to do every night I never had a dull moment.. I feel like my mom is trying to turn me into her.. and i dont wanna be that.. I wanna be myself.. god i sound so pathetic.. I dont think I have felt this bad in a while.. but things happpen for a reason right? I dont know.. I miss everyone and everything about Jacksonville... and what makes me miss it more is that I am missing 2 of my best friends birthdays... today is Jessicas and tomorrow is Brittany's... and here I sit and I cant spend it with them.. and they are turning 18 ... I just feel like I should be there.. instead here I sit babysitting my mom and being bored.. i was suppose to go to the movies with this one guy but didnt happen bc of a "family outing" then this other guy the one that give me "butterflys" wanted to do something but nooo i was out with my mom said give me a call when that is done.. so i did and no answer..... god.. just my luck right? lets face it I am detined to be alone and why would I think that a guy could like me right.. I am soo not any guys type.. I hate this feeling....
I MISS MY HOMETOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:( :(
I MISS MY HOMETOWN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:( :(