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Yeah Im just sitting here right now doing nothing... Its about 8:43 in tha morning... and I havent even figured out what im going to do today... Jan Is very cool... too bad that guy has a girlfriend... hes super hot!! and he plays the bass too... wow... so far all the guys that ive gone out with have played the guitar... Rene, Peter, Damian, Daniel... I think... I dont know... I never really payed attention... o well... But yea... Jan is cool... we need to hang out sometime and kick back... any way... Yea Rene Hates my fucking guts because... Hes just like that... what can I do? I cant make him be my friend again... that be pretty stupid... i honestly dont care... you know If him and his girlfriend Hate me... you know... go ahead... have a blast... Rene is a really great boyfriend... and I regret us breaking up but what has happend is done... and I cant take it back... I just really wish that I could have a guy that would really like me, and just be my friend... Im tired of this soo called "love thing". its too complicated... And now that Im free... I dont know.... I just dont want to get into another relationship again... Like Peter, and me weve been together for a long time, and It went absolutley NO WHERE... we didnt even talk to each other... we were just there... And I regret telling tha guy that I loved him... Because I didnt i dont even love myself ... How can i love someone else...? I dont know... shit happends... I just want a guy friend that will be there when I have problems... thats all... Im sick of "love "
im TIRED of the old amanda....
Im Manda-lou now!!! so forget about tha old me...
youll never see her again...
The Slate is clean
♥ Manda Lou