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[itssarah]

I have been one giant ball of emotions today. and I can't really understand what they are or why they're coming out.. but I think it has something do with this whole thing about materialism and superficiality. I'm so happy with who I am.. but I can't tell if other people are. I have no idea if what people see, or think they see, is something they truly like.. or if they're just putting on another show caring about me. I think I might over analyze things and worry about the wrong things. I mean.. I must not be too bad of a person if I have friends.. but you never really know anyone enough to see what they see. and I guess I just want to get inside everyone's head to see if what they say or think is genuine. but.. it's impossible. so my moping around and dwelling on these issues is completely pointless. so I guess I'll just suck it up and accept that I can't know everything I want to. I guess, all I need is a genuine "Sarah, I really care about you. you're a great person and I love you for who you are" and then people to act like it.. and show me that they can truly care about me. because I will fully give myself to everyone I care about.

ps. it's amazing how much Chris can make my day better. :)

remember she asked you.. remember to breathe and everything will be okay