(no subject)
I don't know what to do, things have gotten bad. I'm so afraid of losing him. I think he's given up on me. I hope not, I can't lose him. He's only called once in the past 3 days, I only got to talk to him for like 10 minutes before I had to go and then I tried calling him back with no answer, no returned calls, no text messages, no IMs. I'm so lost, I can't function, its so lame, all I do is think, "hmm I wonder if he called". I've tried to call him atleast 19 times in the past two days. I wanted to see him tonight, but I can't even talk to him, much less see him. I just want things back to normal. I miss him so much. So very much. He's all I think about. Its so lame, I sound like such a little girl. Gross. Redecorated my arm. Once for every time he didn't answer the phone. 19 to be exact, but they're much smaller than the 4 I did for every guy that..... I think I've gone off the deep end. Opps. Oh well, no big loss. Just another human soul. Where is he? Damn fear of home phones, wish it would go away now, I'd really like to talk to my boyfriend. Atleast I think he's still my boyfriend. I hope. CRAP. What'd I do? I need to add more. Maybe I'll try calling again. He's going to hate me forever when he sees my arm. Maybe I shouldn't call again. But what if he would pick up this time. Ha. Yah right. I screw everything up. I'm such a failure. Gah.