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I really wish I could work my way past these weird waves of emotional/social anxiety I get when I use social networking sites/services/whatever. I can't help but think that I'm not doing enough to promote my costume or performance status, or that, that very essence of my presence is driving people away. But yet this also fascinates me - just the sociological side of how our concepts of friendship, love, affection, and relationships are being dominated by how we interact little pixels on a screen - from across the world. A "like" represents a 3rd person presence, an acknowledgment of the published record of your consciousness at that given moment.
I miss the days of leaving my childhood home barefoot, knocking at the front door of a few friend's houses, then walking a good half mile to poke crawdads in the stream until the sun went down. Full knowing I should get home before mom puts the dinner on the table.
No cell phone, no facebook - but real networking with face value.
Granted my friends grew up to be different people then me, and I reached out to the web in order to find companions with similar interests - with success, but also this detached emotional anxiety. Our ties together are all so very thin - I think a lot of this roots very literally at the fear of loosing people I appreciate in my life... yada yada yada.
I wish I have the patience to sit down some time soon a hash out these ideas and perspectives on paper - formulate a theory and use my Anthropology... Examine this phenomena, because I know I'm not alone - perhaps a bit sensitive, but not alone in this manner.
P.S. i think I'm going to take a facebook hiatus to calm these stupid feelings. If work hadn't worn me out this morning I'd love to go to the gym and sprint off these stupid lingering, distracting, emotions. I feel constantly occupied, but perhaps I need to be more busy then I already am.
I miss the days of leaving my childhood home barefoot, knocking at the front door of a few friend's houses, then walking a good half mile to poke crawdads in the stream until the sun went down. Full knowing I should get home before mom puts the dinner on the table.
No cell phone, no facebook - but real networking with face value.
Granted my friends grew up to be different people then me, and I reached out to the web in order to find companions with similar interests - with success, but also this detached emotional anxiety. Our ties together are all so very thin - I think a lot of this roots very literally at the fear of loosing people I appreciate in my life... yada yada yada.
I wish I have the patience to sit down some time soon a hash out these ideas and perspectives on paper - formulate a theory and use my Anthropology... Examine this phenomena, because I know I'm not alone - perhaps a bit sensitive, but not alone in this manner.
P.S. i think I'm going to take a facebook hiatus to calm these stupid feelings. If work hadn't worn me out this morning I'd love to go to the gym and sprint off these stupid lingering, distracting, emotions. I feel constantly occupied, but perhaps I need to be more busy then I already am.