Dreams and Other Stuff
I don't like happy endings. Except the ones that are tinted with bittersweet. I love tragedies.
Negative emotions seem to be so much more dramatic, more exaggerated, more intriguing. Because they're more complex, I suppose. Happiness is happiness, but there are so many different shades to agony, despair, guilt, regret...
I am not sure why I thought of this now. I've been having weird dreams for the past couple of nights that have been colored with feelings of discomfort and awkwardness and even a tinge of sadness perhaps? The first one I distinctly remember had me in ordinary circumstances, everyone around me reacted normally, nothing special happened. The events of the dream were dull, even: I was in the kitchen and then a cafeteria, and then an auditorium, etc. But I woke up feeling... well, weird, I guess. Certainly not anything positive. I felt bad and regretful and I couldn't say why I felt that way.
Yesterday night's dream was a bit more epic. Like something from the 'Princess Bride', there were castles and sword fights and big battles. It was the pirates vs. the cooks (I don't know how I came up with that either) and I was in the same feeling of discomfort and awkwardness that I had in my previous dream. Except this time it was drowned in with a healthy dose of fear, paranoia, and regret. Yep, I think that was the right mix. I somehow got the idea that I was the traitor in that dream. And yet, I was always disconnected with all of the action. I have no clue.
And I have no idea what the point of this post was. Ah, it's 2:00 in the morning. I should stop rambling and get to bed. Or at least back to my movie.
Oh, btw on the Twilight update. Oh goodness, it's so bad I could cry. And the worse things is that it's fictional which means I can't actually punch any of the characters or scream at them, etc. I opened New Moon up to the first couple of chapters and considered giving up but then it got okay. Jacob's probably the most realistic character I've encountered so far in this saga (by Meyer's standards, of course) and he makes the book bearable. But then it went downhill from there again so I just kind of skimmed till the end, looking out for any truly LOL moments. I'm kind of intrigued enough now to want to skim through Eclipse (You didn't think I could take actually reading it, did you?). I mean, where else could she possibly take this? Could it get any worse? Yeah, I think it could.
Negative emotions seem to be so much more dramatic, more exaggerated, more intriguing. Because they're more complex, I suppose. Happiness is happiness, but there are so many different shades to agony, despair, guilt, regret...
I am not sure why I thought of this now. I've been having weird dreams for the past couple of nights that have been colored with feelings of discomfort and awkwardness and even a tinge of sadness perhaps? The first one I distinctly remember had me in ordinary circumstances, everyone around me reacted normally, nothing special happened. The events of the dream were dull, even: I was in the kitchen and then a cafeteria, and then an auditorium, etc. But I woke up feeling... well, weird, I guess. Certainly not anything positive. I felt bad and regretful and I couldn't say why I felt that way.
Yesterday night's dream was a bit more epic. Like something from the 'Princess Bride', there were castles and sword fights and big battles. It was the pirates vs. the cooks (I don't know how I came up with that either) and I was in the same feeling of discomfort and awkwardness that I had in my previous dream. Except this time it was drowned in with a healthy dose of fear, paranoia, and regret. Yep, I think that was the right mix. I somehow got the idea that I was the traitor in that dream. And yet, I was always disconnected with all of the action. I have no clue.
And I have no idea what the point of this post was. Ah, it's 2:00 in the morning. I should stop rambling and get to bed. Or at least back to my movie.
Oh, btw on the Twilight update. Oh goodness, it's so bad I could cry. And the worse things is that it's fictional which means I can't actually punch any of the characters or scream at them, etc. I opened New Moon up to the first couple of chapters and considered giving up but then it got okay. Jacob's probably the most realistic character I've encountered so far in this saga (by Meyer's standards, of course) and he makes the book bearable. But then it went downhill from there again so I just kind of skimmed till the end, looking out for any truly LOL moments. I'm kind of intrigued enough now to want to skim through Eclipse (You didn't think I could take actually reading it, did you?). I mean, where else could she possibly take this? Could it get any worse? Yeah, I think it could.