feeling nothing regretting nothing
The end is
beautiful
When you decide to care it'll be too late I'll be dead in your blindness..You talk of your agony..let me through mine without constant reminder of how much of a failure I am....To Him I'm everything I'm worth something more than this earth can offer, even more than your friendship and care can offer...When this neverending horridity comes it will cover all the earth and destroy all that refuse it....These feelings run in and out constantly running into each other....knowing all that I dont..I hope I make it out alive cause the dreams tell me that a black ocean comes and will make this world feel pain 10 times greater than anyone can imagine..I see darkness set all around me even though im in the light im not in His light where I should be.....crying at night wondering if He hears my screams....if He feels my tears...this world may see them but havent the slightest clue of how I want to end this burden called life......Silence is the most beautiful sound ever heard.....Day by day my heart grows quieter to the point of no heartbeat and when that day comes..when I cant hear my hear and you cant see me....mourn..mourn till you die cause when you do I might care even if you didnt.....Mourn so He can care...Mourn so you can finally feel human....at least open your eyes to something worth dying for even if it's not yourself.....Mourn so you can die happy cause im already dead and at peace...sometimes it's better that way....Let tears fall till this vast world of sorrow called earth floods with pain and grief.....let me die and you mourn....it might make me see that you cared and actually loved me........................................even if you didnt...............................................................