a friend can only take so much...
She's been my left hand fro so long. I'm also thinking this could be a good thing. I mean, i love her to death, but she's been bringing me down so much and since new years, she pretty much been treating me like shit. Every time we've gone to a party, she's flipped shit about something she didn't like and it gets taken out on me. It was always my fault if someone looked at her weird or made her feel unwanted. When it's just our group of friends just kickin it, she always think we're making fun of her for something that she doesn't know about. I've been accused of things that I'm in no way shape or form responsible for and things that I'm not even aware of. Why would we do that to her?! The reason we hangout with her is because we like her and thought that she was our friend and felt the same way we do. Everything's negative, everything is about her, it's like it my job to make her have a good time. I can't control everyone, i can't do anything if they talk shit. I doubt that she even noticed what I've gone through for her. That I've left many parties because of her, i left my own birthday party for her! Its pisses me off so much that i don't any recognition for any of it. I can't remember a thank you or a sorry coming out of her mouth for making my night shitty weekend after weekend. I don't know if i should regret all I've done for her...I've done all i can and I'm so worn out from it.
This is, yet another friendship gone down the fucking drain. Why do i have to go through this over and over?
Oh my god! I'm so stressed over this! I feel bad, but when people treat me like shit there's nothing I can do and I need to get out of it.
I think its funny how certain people take what I say. It's not always obvious what I'm talking about, but don't you think you should know if it's about you before you make a statement?
Buuuuut this weekend was lots and lots of fun. i don't really remember saturday night, but from what i hear, we all had a good time. the only bad part was the whole thing with angela and not being able to go in the hot tub with those special joints because of 2 really smart sophomore-fucks who dropped them IN the water. ive never seen the boys move so fast, 4 of them dove to try and save them, but ended up only saving 1 and all their clothes were soaked. ha, its was the funniest thing i've ever seen.
And I just found out that my gigi-grandma's funeral is May 22, the same day as prom. Isn't that just fucking great? My mom and sisters are going be in be Wisconsin. I'm a little mad that my grandma planned it on that date when she knew when prom was. I mean, its my senior prom, I don't do anything with school, I've only been to one other school dance. I'm gonna remember that night or most of that night, for the rest of my life, but I also get to remember it as her funeral. Can't one thing that means something to me work out good this year? I feel bad that I'm mad about this.
Oh, and if you have a problem with what i've done, you should talk to me about it. Not bitch to my friends who have nothing to do with it.
This is, yet another friendship gone down the fucking drain. Why do i have to go through this over and over?
Oh my god! I'm so stressed over this! I feel bad, but when people treat me like shit there's nothing I can do and I need to get out of it.
I think its funny how certain people take what I say. It's not always obvious what I'm talking about, but don't you think you should know if it's about you before you make a statement?
Buuuuut this weekend was lots and lots of fun. i don't really remember saturday night, but from what i hear, we all had a good time. the only bad part was the whole thing with angela and not being able to go in the hot tub with those special joints because of 2 really smart sophomore-fucks who dropped them IN the water. ive never seen the boys move so fast, 4 of them dove to try and save them, but ended up only saving 1 and all their clothes were soaked. ha, its was the funniest thing i've ever seen.
And I just found out that my gigi-grandma's funeral is May 22, the same day as prom. Isn't that just fucking great? My mom and sisters are going be in be Wisconsin. I'm a little mad that my grandma planned it on that date when she knew when prom was. I mean, its my senior prom, I don't do anything with school, I've only been to one other school dance. I'm gonna remember that night or most of that night, for the rest of my life, but I also get to remember it as her funeral. Can't one thing that means something to me work out good this year? I feel bad that I'm mad about this.
Oh, and if you have a problem with what i've done, you should talk to me about it. Not bitch to my friends who have nothing to do with it.