Mmm peanut butter. Mmm sarcasm.
This morning while I was making myself some toast with peanut butter on it, I began reading the ingredients on the Skippy jar. There is an ingredient called rape seed and it is used to prevent separation. For some reason, I found this to be ridiculously hilarious and I laughed the entire time I ate and even afterwards in the shower.
Something like this would normally only produce nothing more than a snicker or a school-girl-giggle from me, and my dangerous laughter made me question my sanity.
However, I came to the conclusion that when I am stuck in a home with a brother who thinks himself clever when he lunges at me with a knife pretending to stab me, or a mom who enjoys trying to know everything that I am doing at every moment, I begin to appreciate smaller things that make me happy. Like finding out that peanut butter has rapeseed in it, or having a three hour conversation with a friend who I now believe is the most complex, brilliant, and best person ever. Sorry, I'm not talking about you.
I guess what I am trying to say is that when you are in an unavoidably difficult situation, try not to let the negative aspects consume you. There is always that one thing that you can identify with and retreat to when things get worse. Normally that thing for me is my art, but for some reason it was sarcastic, comic relief this time. Also, never ever create expectations of how something should be. Expectations are the single most accesible way to set yourself up for failure and disappointment. To me, I always imagine expectations to be an attempt at being a god. Predicting how someone will react and trying to model a situation around that is the most ridiculous idea ever because most likey the other person has expectations for you as well. I have had so many examples this past week of how I have expected a situation playing out and gotten smacked in the face with disappointed, so I'm not going to bother to elaborate with a personal story. I hope you can relate otherwise.
In conclusion, keeping your chin up, your mind clear and your eyes open can help you find a light in the dark. Whether it be as small as a match or as large as a spotlight, it is there.
Mmm yes, it feels good to spread optimism like rapeseed-filled peanut butter.
Something like this would normally only produce nothing more than a snicker or a school-girl-giggle from me, and my dangerous laughter made me question my sanity.
However, I came to the conclusion that when I am stuck in a home with a brother who thinks himself clever when he lunges at me with a knife pretending to stab me, or a mom who enjoys trying to know everything that I am doing at every moment, I begin to appreciate smaller things that make me happy. Like finding out that peanut butter has rapeseed in it, or having a three hour conversation with a friend who I now believe is the most complex, brilliant, and best person ever. Sorry, I'm not talking about you.
I guess what I am trying to say is that when you are in an unavoidably difficult situation, try not to let the negative aspects consume you. There is always that one thing that you can identify with and retreat to when things get worse. Normally that thing for me is my art, but for some reason it was sarcastic, comic relief this time. Also, never ever create expectations of how something should be. Expectations are the single most accesible way to set yourself up for failure and disappointment. To me, I always imagine expectations to be an attempt at being a god. Predicting how someone will react and trying to model a situation around that is the most ridiculous idea ever because most likey the other person has expectations for you as well. I have had so many examples this past week of how I have expected a situation playing out and gotten smacked in the face with disappointed, so I'm not going to bother to elaborate with a personal story. I hope you can relate otherwise.
In conclusion, keeping your chin up, your mind clear and your eyes open can help you find a light in the dark. Whether it be as small as a match or as large as a spotlight, it is there.
Mmm yes, it feels good to spread optimism like rapeseed-filled peanut butter.