back to my ramblings
this weekend, amazing. i expected no less. and im way happy that i was able to finish my paper after everybody left. who the heck says you cant have your cake and eat it too? that is the dumbest saying actually. if you had cake, why wouldnt you eat it? besides, pie is way better.
this quarter only has 2 more weeks left! and im pretty focused on school right now, so thats what this paragraph will be about. 2 weeks! that means i graduate in one quarter and 2 weeks! my friend offered to vouch for me for a really good job that has offices in SLO, Oxnard, and San Diego--the 3 places i would want to live for the rest of my life. this places a huge decision in my life. i wanted to join the peace corps soo bad, but i have to admit, some of that is becuase i didnt want to settle for a shitty job. and now i may have a sweet job lined up! i keep thinking about how nice it would be to settle down and have a real job, with real money coming in. ive enjoyed my bum life so far, but luxury and security is so tempting right now. more than i thought it ever would be. ive been moving around non-stop ever since high school it feels like. i love it, but it gets so tiring at times. the kind of tired that just makes you feel old. but then i start thinking about the peace corps and the oppurtunity to travel, help people, and learn a language and i feel like that chance wont ever come around again. the main reason i went to europe was because i didnt think i would get that same chance again. well, that worked out great for me. there will be more job offers after the peace corps i guess. i guess i just convinced myself of the right decision.
i want to say so much more. my mind is full of different people and different ideas and thoughts ive been having, but its making me crazy and sometimes i just want them all gone. and my cure for that is lost. lost SOMEWHERE in this damn apartment...
i fucking hate my memory loss and my stupid habit of hiding shit from myself. its in this damn apartment somewhere, i swear.
this quarter only has 2 more weeks left! and im pretty focused on school right now, so thats what this paragraph will be about. 2 weeks! that means i graduate in one quarter and 2 weeks! my friend offered to vouch for me for a really good job that has offices in SLO, Oxnard, and San Diego--the 3 places i would want to live for the rest of my life. this places a huge decision in my life. i wanted to join the peace corps soo bad, but i have to admit, some of that is becuase i didnt want to settle for a shitty job. and now i may have a sweet job lined up! i keep thinking about how nice it would be to settle down and have a real job, with real money coming in. ive enjoyed my bum life so far, but luxury and security is so tempting right now. more than i thought it ever would be. ive been moving around non-stop ever since high school it feels like. i love it, but it gets so tiring at times. the kind of tired that just makes you feel old. but then i start thinking about the peace corps and the oppurtunity to travel, help people, and learn a language and i feel like that chance wont ever come around again. the main reason i went to europe was because i didnt think i would get that same chance again. well, that worked out great for me. there will be more job offers after the peace corps i guess. i guess i just convinced myself of the right decision.
i want to say so much more. my mind is full of different people and different ideas and thoughts ive been having, but its making me crazy and sometimes i just want them all gone. and my cure for that is lost. lost SOMEWHERE in this damn apartment...
i fucking hate my memory loss and my stupid habit of hiding shit from myself. its in this damn apartment somewhere, i swear.