Friends
I was so excite to leave for college and then tonight. So many goodbye's. So many people saying they will visit but I know that most of them really won't. I hope they prove me wrong. So many people called and said goodbye. When I was at Chipotle an aquientance came and said bye and we shared a few words. Dan, Mollie and Illisa stopped by. Mari, Jodi, Einav, Mollie, Emily, Becca, and Niki stopped by and we talked. I just could not walk away. Angelica called me and Carla texted me. I am so happy I have so many people who care about me and who I care about.
Sometimes I look at the people who I say I am friends with and I see who is really there. Who I can depend on. Thanks guys. I will miss all of you so much and it will be hard to find a mosaic of friends who have the same amount of heart as you guys.
As I sit here, I am just reflecting on things like the fact that I have know Einav for 7 years. She was the little girl next door at one point. I look back on friendships I wish I developed more and other friend ships that started last year but now ars so strong. Frienships that were strong and have faded and also missed moments when I wish I had expressed my feelings. You always look back and say you should have done something but the moment is never right. Sometimes I feel like I never have the right moments. Do I not create them or am I just unlucky? Who knows. When I get to college I want to start over. A new bolder more risktaking Evan. Maybe I will just become the asshole that I hate or maybe it will work. Only time can tell.
On a more me note....wow, that entry was so not normal me. A start to college me? or will there be no difference? There I go agian. I know one thing though. I will not miss that opritunity to take action and make it happen in college.
Sometimes I look at the people who I say I am friends with and I see who is really there. Who I can depend on. Thanks guys. I will miss all of you so much and it will be hard to find a mosaic of friends who have the same amount of heart as you guys.
As I sit here, I am just reflecting on things like the fact that I have know Einav for 7 years. She was the little girl next door at one point. I look back on friendships I wish I developed more and other friend ships that started last year but now ars so strong. Frienships that were strong and have faded and also missed moments when I wish I had expressed my feelings. You always look back and say you should have done something but the moment is never right. Sometimes I feel like I never have the right moments. Do I not create them or am I just unlucky? Who knows. When I get to college I want to start over. A new bolder more risktaking Evan. Maybe I will just become the asshole that I hate or maybe it will work. Only time can tell.
On a more me note....wow, that entry was so not normal me. A start to college me? or will there be no difference? There I go agian. I know one thing though. I will not miss that opritunity to take action and make it happen in college.