The most crazy shit yo
you can go away and never come back. but there will always be someone waiting for you back home. someone to go bowling with on the weekends. someone who will let you sit for hours getting your coffee and your key-lime pie; while you both chat about the same things you have for years. someone who doesnt care weather or not you smoke, drink, or havent yet gotten your high school diploma. there will always be something special about this person that will always make you think positivly; and if you have too sometimes, you can use this to get your head back on straight. this person does not care about anything; your oddities are yours and their's alike, weather or not they like them doesnt matter, and its not about getting back on them for having more on you or something of the like.
sometimes i cant think straight, and sometimes i feel like im on top of the world. but in both times i end up saying things that i think are the right thing to say, and because i say them without putting the thoughts forward enough to really think them through, they end up misunderstood. of course they do, but that is something i have to deal with; but who cares? i dont lol... the point is, everything i say has the meaning i think i want at the moment, and in the grand scheme of things doesnt really matter anyways right? we as humans can say whatever we want, and we can choose to interpret things any way we please. but keep in mind it is a far better indicator to watch what people DO, not what they say. try it sometime; in fact you probably already do it subconciously. ever noticed at work when you are working with perhaps lets have it be a new person in your department, or pizza station if it may be; you probably have a quick tendancy to either like them or dislike them. the fact is, you watch the way they are, and for instance if they are uncoordinated, to many people this is discustingly annoying. another would be if you were with them and they took care of things in the workplace for you when you couldnt, this action builds trust and all other kinds of good things for a healthy friendship. dont ever underestimate the power of peoples actions, they are more defining and important than words; its a shame more people put emphasis on the spoken things, which are merely ideas, nothing physical which is what has real bearing on theirs and yours impact on the world around you.
keep in mind here that im just rambling on and on, its probably just one of those times like i said before that i can say whatever i wish too and have it misinterpreted. all i ask is that if you see me, enjoy me or hate me based upon what i do that involves you. im always up for new things, and if i seem to be crazy one day its probably related to the latter, i love to play mind games. it has the tendancy to piss people off, but heck thats their problem right? i mean to me its all a big joke, life and everything it has in it. it begins and ends, and there is no way for me to know what lies after it. so, therefore i should have fun doing whatever seems funny to me at the time. i do feel sorry for those who dont see practical humor the same way i do; but that is because i choose it. but its not like im a prick all the time, people who have gotten to know me over the years havent left me yet, lol. perhaps newcommers will be the same.
I havent made a single friend since freshman year of high school... and since im going on my sophomore year in college, thats been quite a long time. whoever wants to be my next friend will have to try pretty damn hard lol.... but not if they know what they are doing. by that i mean they should be able to read through all the bull in this blog. there is so much of it, the fact that there are words on this web page you are reading, (if you dont know what page you are on go to livejournal.com/users/itsmetbone) that should set you straight again. Oh wait, that would put you back here again wouldnt it? but that would be good, because then you could try and decipher this message again. go ahead, kill some time, be alone, and just exist, thats the one action i enjoy most in people; such a shame they dont do it more often in my prescence. i love a good mystery too, the best novels are those like "the davinci code" and some of stephen kings best books involve the same. I enjoy testing people, to see their reaction (again the actions), and its rather funny to bring out the real person in some of them, and they get rather scared of their own actions, quickly covering up whatever damage they seem to have unintentionally caused; in reality they had a brief instance of sanity, and well probably better health too.
But lets face the facts here, im tired, just worked 13.5 hours today and have 6 more waiting for me at 7 in the morning. im out, and this again is full of bullshit right? you decide.
G'night all.
sometimes i cant think straight, and sometimes i feel like im on top of the world. but in both times i end up saying things that i think are the right thing to say, and because i say them without putting the thoughts forward enough to really think them through, they end up misunderstood. of course they do, but that is something i have to deal with; but who cares? i dont lol... the point is, everything i say has the meaning i think i want at the moment, and in the grand scheme of things doesnt really matter anyways right? we as humans can say whatever we want, and we can choose to interpret things any way we please. but keep in mind it is a far better indicator to watch what people DO, not what they say. try it sometime; in fact you probably already do it subconciously. ever noticed at work when you are working with perhaps lets have it be a new person in your department, or pizza station if it may be; you probably have a quick tendancy to either like them or dislike them. the fact is, you watch the way they are, and for instance if they are uncoordinated, to many people this is discustingly annoying. another would be if you were with them and they took care of things in the workplace for you when you couldnt, this action builds trust and all other kinds of good things for a healthy friendship. dont ever underestimate the power of peoples actions, they are more defining and important than words; its a shame more people put emphasis on the spoken things, which are merely ideas, nothing physical which is what has real bearing on theirs and yours impact on the world around you.
keep in mind here that im just rambling on and on, its probably just one of those times like i said before that i can say whatever i wish too and have it misinterpreted. all i ask is that if you see me, enjoy me or hate me based upon what i do that involves you. im always up for new things, and if i seem to be crazy one day its probably related to the latter, i love to play mind games. it has the tendancy to piss people off, but heck thats their problem right? i mean to me its all a big joke, life and everything it has in it. it begins and ends, and there is no way for me to know what lies after it. so, therefore i should have fun doing whatever seems funny to me at the time. i do feel sorry for those who dont see practical humor the same way i do; but that is because i choose it. but its not like im a prick all the time, people who have gotten to know me over the years havent left me yet, lol. perhaps newcommers will be the same.
I havent made a single friend since freshman year of high school... and since im going on my sophomore year in college, thats been quite a long time. whoever wants to be my next friend will have to try pretty damn hard lol.... but not if they know what they are doing. by that i mean they should be able to read through all the bull in this blog. there is so much of it, the fact that there are words on this web page you are reading, (if you dont know what page you are on go to livejournal.com/users/itsmetbone) that should set you straight again. Oh wait, that would put you back here again wouldnt it? but that would be good, because then you could try and decipher this message again. go ahead, kill some time, be alone, and just exist, thats the one action i enjoy most in people; such a shame they dont do it more often in my prescence. i love a good mystery too, the best novels are those like "the davinci code" and some of stephen kings best books involve the same. I enjoy testing people, to see their reaction (again the actions), and its rather funny to bring out the real person in some of them, and they get rather scared of their own actions, quickly covering up whatever damage they seem to have unintentionally caused; in reality they had a brief instance of sanity, and well probably better health too.
But lets face the facts here, im tired, just worked 13.5 hours today and have 6 more waiting for me at 7 in the morning. im out, and this again is full of bullshit right? you decide.
G'night all.