And when it reaches its peak...
i belive it was from the christmas story that the main character said something like this. "ah, life's like that; sometimes at the peak of our revelries, when all is right with the world, the most unimaginable things happen." well, perhaps not unimaginable, but certanly hard to deal with.... I donno, maybe i suffer from some form of depression. I do know i suffer from something that makes it hard for me to talk to people and coexist in large groups, more than most people. I think that it was my upbringing, but i should be able to change that with time right? I sure hope so, because even though I dont speak to it, i can watch it slowing me down, and keeping me behind everyone and everything else. I donno... on top of this, I just found out that my cousin Julie, yes a girl who is in the army, is over in Tecrit, Iraq, and is driving lead cars in convoys. To make matters worse, a friend she made after weeks in Iraq, was killed. I can only imagine how scared she must feel. I donno why but things that happen to other people seem to affect me more than things that happen to me. I donno... FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK... phew that felt a little better. lol. I wish that i could talk to people easier. Its hard to live life without being able to experience things that everyone else does. I FUCKIN HATE IT. I donno... I guess I'll feel better about this in the morning.