Nov 08, 2005 07:56
my aunt always said everyone is always going to disappoint you and anything everyone else ever does is out their own self interest. I've yet to prove her wrong.
I guess it's what you do any way that makes a difference. But i'm sick of happy crap and i'm sick of being cheered up right now.
These feeling are reminicent of another time and i'm left a little more paralyzed and speechless.
how important is it that you trust anyone else is it anyway. Maybe Hobbes was wrong and you need to be a little suspicious of everyone for things to work. How are those you love behind your back? I could probably list those i trust on one hand. and even then, it's with a lot of hope. But i can't say much more for myself or even say if i derserve that trust anyway. I've obviously failed before.
I keep zoning out...like my mind gets so preoccupied with thoughts that i just stop responding to what's going on and just kind of sit there lost. I should go take a shower now or something. I do have to work at some point here.
I'm going to be 22 soon...i tried to think of whether I thought that was old or young...i came to the conclusion it was irrelevant right now.
Good thing no one really reads this crap