I am ALIVE!!
Hello Hullo all.
I do realise it has been quite some time since I last wrote an entry. The reason being: My fajer is a prick. He got pissed at me one night when I went home with my sister.. decided that I was an evil human being just because I wouldn't let him read my LJ so he cancelled my internet entirely. I am at my brother's house now. I came here with my sister and nephew to spend the day swimming because I live in FL and it is hotter then a motherfucking donkey's penis after he was sitting in mexico and just got laid by a hot european donkey.. (does Europe even have donkies?.. and if so.. is that how you make donkey plural.. or even if not so.. ANYWAY NOT THE POINT end ADD session number one)
I have quite a few new updates to be honest.. well.. HOW STRANGE.. my ex boyfriend came back to town.. showed up at my house and it was like a day hadn't passed.. so.. here we are... Chris came by the house two nights ago.. and tried his hardest to get me back.. and how proud I was of myself for saying no. I didn't even hug him.. Isn't that awesome?! Well, I thought that was gravy until the next niht when he came by again.. this is when I actually did hug him because he was have a really really hard time adn was very upset about how he screwed things up.. When I hugged him.. I realised that I would never feel the same way in any one else's arms. Which is quite sad.. but I discovered later that as much as I loved Chris.. I hate everything about him.. and I could never be with him again just because we are such completely different peole. Which is a great conclusion to come to however, I will still never feel the same with anyone else. And it wasn't until I was laying in bed after I hugged him that I discovered how much I really really missed feeling that way. I am over Chris now and I don't love chris anymore.. but I still loved him.. and I still hold on to that love that I had for him but I don't love him.. make any sense to you at all? I don't love him now, but I loved him before and I can't forgot how I loved him before. I don't know if anyone but me will ever understand that. Anyway. I hope all is well with everyone. I will probably do very brief updates such as this one every once adn a while when I come over here to visit. But for now, I must be going to get dressed. Me my sister brother boyfriend and best friend and his cousin are all heading out to old town tonight. My best buddy Joel bought me a ticket on the sky coaster.. YAY!!!!!!! Bye bye..
I do realise it has been quite some time since I last wrote an entry. The reason being: My fajer is a prick. He got pissed at me one night when I went home with my sister.. decided that I was an evil human being just because I wouldn't let him read my LJ so he cancelled my internet entirely. I am at my brother's house now. I came here with my sister and nephew to spend the day swimming because I live in FL and it is hotter then a motherfucking donkey's penis after he was sitting in mexico and just got laid by a hot european donkey.. (does Europe even have donkies?.. and if so.. is that how you make donkey plural.. or even if not so.. ANYWAY NOT THE POINT end ADD session number one)
I have quite a few new updates to be honest.. well.. HOW STRANGE.. my ex boyfriend came back to town.. showed up at my house and it was like a day hadn't passed.. so.. here we are... Chris came by the house two nights ago.. and tried his hardest to get me back.. and how proud I was of myself for saying no. I didn't even hug him.. Isn't that awesome?! Well, I thought that was gravy until the next niht when he came by again.. this is when I actually did hug him because he was have a really really hard time adn was very upset about how he screwed things up.. When I hugged him.. I realised that I would never feel the same way in any one else's arms. Which is quite sad.. but I discovered later that as much as I loved Chris.. I hate everything about him.. and I could never be with him again just because we are such completely different peole. Which is a great conclusion to come to however, I will still never feel the same with anyone else. And it wasn't until I was laying in bed after I hugged him that I discovered how much I really really missed feeling that way. I am over Chris now and I don't love chris anymore.. but I still loved him.. and I still hold on to that love that I had for him but I don't love him.. make any sense to you at all? I don't love him now, but I loved him before and I can't forgot how I loved him before. I don't know if anyone but me will ever understand that. Anyway. I hope all is well with everyone. I will probably do very brief updates such as this one every once adn a while when I come over here to visit. But for now, I must be going to get dressed. Me my sister brother boyfriend and best friend and his cousin are all heading out to old town tonight. My best buddy Joel bought me a ticket on the sky coaster.. YAY!!!!!!! Bye bye..