while you were sleeping
this is a neoprint of macky and i in a not so distant past when the time we can still hangout together and go to such places. when the time we werent busy yet.
last august 11, we celebrated our third anniversary, where you can actually, actually say this isnt "chemical love" anymore. well, for those who doesnt know the history, it started on that.
i gave him a blue rose and a book. i had no time to buy the flower and the gift, so i got it before my shift and gave it to him when i got home, which is the eve of our anniversary. we both took our time off at work last friday, so we could hangout on that special day. we went to mall of asia. we're supposed to try ice-skating but we both chickened-out. we're both on budget constraint so we just window shopped, had a korean ice cream, walked, walked, and walked until we got tired. we even saw his dad, he just had a very short talk to his dad then we left to go to shangri la mall. by the way, his dad doesnt know that we're together but his mom does. same case as my parents.
while driving, he asked me if i'm sure if we're gonna have dinner at heat, edsa shang or if i have any other practical choices. for some weird reason i got quite emotional, i mean, its only once a year for a couple to splurge on a special day. hmm. honestly that isnt the start of my being emotional but becuase i did not receive anything from him at all on our anniversary. yeah, it is being inconsiderate of me but what the heck. bakit ba. pwedeng umarte. anyway, thanks to the heavy traffic he cheered me up by singing this super cheesy song. i felt a relief and understood why before we got to the mall. the reservation was at seven but we got there early. so we passed by our favorite store, homme et femme and just gratified our eyes by checking on their new stuff. we cant wait till seven so we got there 630 pa lang. the dinner went great. we're both full. i never had a very sumptuos meal in a long time. we're supposed to watch a movie but it was quite late for him already because he had to work. he's on graveyard shift. we got home by nine and sleep.
sometimes i got very nostalgic because i missed those times na we're both glued together, go to some place, or at home, doing nothing or watching dvds. those times when sex is so great. =p. he even sometimes cook for me. i love the way he cook for me, macky-style. we rarely do that anymore because of the time of his work. he's working when i'm sleeping. he's sleeping when i'm working. it's kind of difficult but i understand. i really do. im pretty contented. its better than nothing at all. i just missed those days.
i know, it's just not possible for one person to be with another person forever and ever but sometimes i coudnt stand this weird feeling that sooner or later he'd get sick of me, or something like that, or the other way around. where the real warm object of affection is gone... i hope that wouldnt happen.
we dont actually know what will happen in the next few years. we'd prolly get separated because of our plans for ourselves, which is to live and work in another country. but i will denifitely hold on to his promise that we will still be together when we get back.
whatever may happen, my love for macky is infinite. my "BFF." the guy that i love and i will love, again, whatever may happen.. for the rest of my life...
wohoo, sunday nga naman at umuulan pa....