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I thought we were mature enough to be friends. We were best friends and lovers forever. And while I don't expect us to be best friends anymore, id expect us to be civil. And able to talk.
You act like I don't miss you. I absolutely do. I have never stopped caring or missing you. But, obviously things changed and you want different things and I guess I do too. But I still would like you to be somewhat in my life. I can't make you feel the same but, I wish I could. It depresses me that your friends call me and yell at me for talking to me. I can't control what you do or who you call when your drunk. Ie me. But deep down, I think you call me because you do miss me and when you're drunk, you push aside your bitterness and understand that I am someone you care about even if you don't want to. Maybe I read too much into things or maybe its wishful thinking but, I think you do care still but are just mad about it. Things didn't end smoothly and it still hard, but we can get past it. Maybe not now, but some day.
You were a huge part of my life. And I miss and love you always. I hope one day you'll want to speak to me as much as I want to speak to you.
You act like I don't miss you. I absolutely do. I have never stopped caring or missing you. But, obviously things changed and you want different things and I guess I do too. But I still would like you to be somewhat in my life. I can't make you feel the same but, I wish I could. It depresses me that your friends call me and yell at me for talking to me. I can't control what you do or who you call when your drunk. Ie me. But deep down, I think you call me because you do miss me and when you're drunk, you push aside your bitterness and understand that I am someone you care about even if you don't want to. Maybe I read too much into things or maybe its wishful thinking but, I think you do care still but are just mad about it. Things didn't end smoothly and it still hard, but we can get past it. Maybe not now, but some day.
You were a huge part of my life. And I miss and love you always. I hope one day you'll want to speak to me as much as I want to speak to you.