ramble.
So I've been wanting to update this journal with something coherent and thought-out for once.
But my problem with that is... that's not how I work.
I finally realized that today. Usually, I open the 'Update Journal' page, then just start typing about what's on my mind. It's worked in the past. I just type... something usually comes out.
The weird thing with me... Sometimes I just plan on talking about one idea or topic... and then I end up writing like... pages and pages of words. I elaborate too much.
Recently, my problem has been actually making my entries public. I write long entries about some topic, and mid-entry, I'll quit because doubt enters my mind. I think to myself, "No one really cares about what I think about this topic," or I criticize my own writing. Ugh. I'm tired of my mundane ramblings.
It's been a while since I've written a solid essay or paper. The last time I remember was Winter Quarter. My paper for History from Spring Quarter doesn't count because it was a real piece of shit for a paper, and I got a B- on it. Now, I would jump for joy if I got that grade in some science class... but for a Humanities course? And a paper, at that? I don't get B-minuses on papers, thank you very much. I'm way too anal for that shiet. I criticize myself the most when it comes to writing. Haha shows how much I cared about that class. I totally disrespected that class... freakin' History 15. Maybe I should have worked harder and gotten better grades and stuff like that.
But my point is... I haven't had any real practice writing papers. I think that's why my writing is basura. I swear... before I post entries, I try to check it over for grammatical errors or edit it to my liking. And when I'm just so frustrated at my inability to get my point across clearly and concisely, I just give up and make it a private entry. Because it's a piece of shiet to me. And then I end up posting these types of entries where I pretty much trip about my writing handicap.
This is dumb.
I only trust one person to peer edit my writings, and he knows who he is. Always brutally honest, which is what I like the most. So thanks, you. =]
Okay. I'm sleepy. Hope ya'll don't mind.
Goodnight!
But my problem with that is... that's not how I work.
I finally realized that today. Usually, I open the 'Update Journal' page, then just start typing about what's on my mind. It's worked in the past. I just type... something usually comes out.
The weird thing with me... Sometimes I just plan on talking about one idea or topic... and then I end up writing like... pages and pages of words. I elaborate too much.
Recently, my problem has been actually making my entries public. I write long entries about some topic, and mid-entry, I'll quit because doubt enters my mind. I think to myself, "No one really cares about what I think about this topic," or I criticize my own writing. Ugh. I'm tired of my mundane ramblings.
It's been a while since I've written a solid essay or paper. The last time I remember was Winter Quarter. My paper for History from Spring Quarter doesn't count because it was a real piece of shit for a paper, and I got a B- on it. Now, I would jump for joy if I got that grade in some science class... but for a Humanities course? And a paper, at that? I don't get B-minuses on papers, thank you very much. I'm way too anal for that shiet. I criticize myself the most when it comes to writing. Haha shows how much I cared about that class. I totally disrespected that class... freakin' History 15. Maybe I should have worked harder and gotten better grades and stuff like that.
But my point is... I haven't had any real practice writing papers. I think that's why my writing is basura. I swear... before I post entries, I try to check it over for grammatical errors or edit it to my liking. And when I'm just so frustrated at my inability to get my point across clearly and concisely, I just give up and make it a private entry. Because it's a piece of shiet to me. And then I end up posting these types of entries where I pretty much trip about my writing handicap.
This is dumb.
I only trust one person to peer edit my writings, and he knows who he is. Always brutally honest, which is what I like the most. So thanks, you. =]
Okay. I'm sleepy. Hope ya'll don't mind.
Goodnight!