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amazing crazy ridiculous crazy first day of school, today was busy and exciting and full of promise, good classes and lots of energy to fight back and study at the same time. and my friends are occupying a building right now which is crazy and i wish i could be a part of it and i am so angry that i am not arrestable because of my financial situation - how ironic considering that's the whole fucking point of everything that's happening. i'm just disapppointed in myself and the sitaution, this is my last year of college and since my first year i've worked so hard (on a personal level) to feel comfortable and coherent within ucsc activism and i wish i could be a part of this now because i feel ready internally. and i am totally bitter and jealous towards the people that feel comfortable instantly and are able to take a big part right away, but that's not the point that's not the point that's not the point. THE POINT IS this is the first day of the school year! and shit will get better. or so it seems anyway.