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I hate my life.
I hate most of the people in it.
I hate the way i feel constantly.
I hate the way i hold on to something that isnt there.
I hate the way i look for the good in people, only to see that they are complete fuck ups.
I hate the way i tend to help those who dont help themselves.
I hate the way i try to be there for people who seem to need it the most only to have them go right back to what was "breaking their heart" in the first place.
I hate the way i harbor my feelings.
I hate the fact that livejournal is the only way i can express my feelings.
I hate the way people seem to genuinely care about whats bothering me but then say that i am too whiney.
I hate the way even when im with a group of totally awesome friends i always wish and hope that the one i want to be there the most will show up [knowing they wont].
I hate the way i cant get my shit together.
I hate the way my own father cant see that im not six fucking years old anymore.
I hate the way my mother cant see that im not the A honor roll student i once was.
I hate the way i love you.
I hate the way i use myspace to express my inner fears and worries knowing that no one gives a damn.
I hate the way people flirt with no intentions.
I hate the way people automatically think that you are in love with someone else just because you are around them.
I hate the way i feel like ive fallen down and its impossible to get back up.
I hate the way when i look at you i cant help but see all the wonderful memories rushing back to my thoughts.
I hate the way People say they love you when they know that four months down the road it wont mean a damn thing.
I hate the way i was just a cure for boredom.
I hate the way i gave my heart to someone who in turn threw it back in my face.
I hate the way you told me school wouldnt change anything but IT DID.
I hate the way you used to hold me while i cried because you "cared" but then you were the reason i cried myself to sleep every night.
I hate the way you made me believe in love.
I hate the way you still make me believe in love.
I hate the way you still make me love you.
I hate the way people try to push you out of love.
I hate the way people try to make you be happier when the only thing that could ever make you happy is the one thing that fucked you up in the first place.
All these things i hate.
But most of all i hate the way i dont hate you.
[all though you give me all the reason to]
[night.<3]
I hate most of the people in it.
I hate the way i feel constantly.
I hate the way i hold on to something that isnt there.
I hate the way i look for the good in people, only to see that they are complete fuck ups.
I hate the way i tend to help those who dont help themselves.
I hate the way i try to be there for people who seem to need it the most only to have them go right back to what was "breaking their heart" in the first place.
I hate the way i harbor my feelings.
I hate the fact that livejournal is the only way i can express my feelings.
I hate the way people seem to genuinely care about whats bothering me but then say that i am too whiney.
I hate the way even when im with a group of totally awesome friends i always wish and hope that the one i want to be there the most will show up [knowing they wont].
I hate the way i cant get my shit together.
I hate the way my own father cant see that im not six fucking years old anymore.
I hate the way my mother cant see that im not the A honor roll student i once was.
I hate the way i love you.
I hate the way i use myspace to express my inner fears and worries knowing that no one gives a damn.
I hate the way people flirt with no intentions.
I hate the way people automatically think that you are in love with someone else just because you are around them.
I hate the way i feel like ive fallen down and its impossible to get back up.
I hate the way when i look at you i cant help but see all the wonderful memories rushing back to my thoughts.
I hate the way People say they love you when they know that four months down the road it wont mean a damn thing.
I hate the way i was just a cure for boredom.
I hate the way i gave my heart to someone who in turn threw it back in my face.
I hate the way you told me school wouldnt change anything but IT DID.
I hate the way you used to hold me while i cried because you "cared" but then you were the reason i cried myself to sleep every night.
I hate the way you made me believe in love.
I hate the way you still make me believe in love.
I hate the way you still make me love you.
I hate the way people try to push you out of love.
I hate the way people try to make you be happier when the only thing that could ever make you happy is the one thing that fucked you up in the first place.
All these things i hate.
But most of all i hate the way i dont hate you.
[all though you give me all the reason to]
[night.<3]