venting
Ok, this is not directed at anyone on here so please don't take offense. i just have some thoughts i need to sort out.
The month of july may have been one of the worst months of my life. Colum got married, i find out jason has a girlfriend and mike is engaged (joke or not). I am hurt that not one of my "friends" comforted me or asked how i was handling this all.
My world was fricking rocked this month. The 3 boys who i always thought would like me crushed me one after another. Not that i don't deserve it or had it coming but still.
Yet i can't bring up anything about relationships because I don't know what it's like, or its very frivilous for me to worry about them, i mean i understand everyone has their own problems and maybe mine don't seem important but i hurt too.
I get so tired of always being happy go lucky, letting things roll off me. I mean I can tell you the new noise ella is making, or what ian is getting marla for her bday, or how work is making kristin mad, or what kelly is making for her dinner party. i could go on and on. why can't they see that i get hurt too?
I think i'm reaching my breaking point. I'm becoming tired all the time, and i cringe every time my phone rings because i know its one of them and i sit there and say oh, wow, really and nod my head alot. why don't they ask how i am? why do i have to bring up things in order to talk about me?
i just want to go back when life was so much simplier.
sigh. i just need a major change. makes me think relocating to another state may not be that bad of an idea...sigh. i'm in a funk.
The month of july may have been one of the worst months of my life. Colum got married, i find out jason has a girlfriend and mike is engaged (joke or not). I am hurt that not one of my "friends" comforted me or asked how i was handling this all.
My world was fricking rocked this month. The 3 boys who i always thought would like me crushed me one after another. Not that i don't deserve it or had it coming but still.
Yet i can't bring up anything about relationships because I don't know what it's like, or its very frivilous for me to worry about them, i mean i understand everyone has their own problems and maybe mine don't seem important but i hurt too.
I get so tired of always being happy go lucky, letting things roll off me. I mean I can tell you the new noise ella is making, or what ian is getting marla for her bday, or how work is making kristin mad, or what kelly is making for her dinner party. i could go on and on. why can't they see that i get hurt too?
I think i'm reaching my breaking point. I'm becoming tired all the time, and i cringe every time my phone rings because i know its one of them and i sit there and say oh, wow, really and nod my head alot. why don't they ask how i am? why do i have to bring up things in order to talk about me?
i just want to go back when life was so much simplier.
sigh. i just need a major change. makes me think relocating to another state may not be that bad of an idea...sigh. i'm in a funk.