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so i didn't go to sleep last night. lost of things were running thru my head. i was just in a depressed mood. david didn't call me. i wasn't allowed to spend the night at lindsey's. i had to go to abe's memorial this morning.
i watched the best movie on the face of this earth. the notebook. i love that movie. thank you sherry for letting me borrow it.
lindsey came and got me at like 5:30 in the morning. we go to walmart. get some gas and then go watch the sun rise on the beach. then we went to abe's memorial together. lindsey and i made a pact that we would be strong and wouldn't cry. it was hard. my eyes kept watering up because other people would burst into tears when they talked about him. they passed around pictures of him. he had the biggest smile in every single one of them. they passed around a little notebook that everyone wrote thier last words to him in. then they released balloons in his memory. it's hard. it just hit me again that he's gone for good. it's sad though because i will never get to really know him. but the part of him that i did get to know was so amazing i don't think i would've been able to handle all of him. it's the little things. american eagle... britney spears... j lo... phanton of the opera... the beach...
Everytime i try to fly i fall without my wings i feel so small i guess i need you baby and everytime i see you in my dreams i see your face your haunting me i guess i need you baby
Sorry that's just a good song at the moment.
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