Of love
I went to the bathroom earlier to fix my hair and looked at myself in the mirror. I know many things have changed over the past year or so (I feel the growing and changing of character much more now than I did when I was younger), but these moments of realisation are rare and often happen around times when the surrounding world has not been gentle towards me. I am a firm believer of the saying "what doesn't break you, make you stronger", as I, like most of the world, has have piercing experiences that made us into who we are today. I believe I know have the full potential to reach the person I want to become - an "I" I can be proud of. I have liven my life as a dream in much of my youth, neglecting the time that was given to me by wasting it away on computer, television and other entertainment systems that did not help me grow into who I am now. I sense a certain amount of adulthood behind my gaze, something I often stated I was, proudly, when I was younger, but which was often either a lie or a misunderstanding. I much more eagerly persue the things which interrest me and which I know are good for me, physically, mentally or spiritually. But I know I lack some things in life. I know now I am ready to love. It has taken a long while to get to this person I am today, someone who can stand tall and proudly believe in her own opinions. Before this, I cannot say if I was able to love anyone (anyone who could return this love).
I am waiting now.
I am waiting now.