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I dunno what it is but the second of every morning I awake is empty...
I force myself to get up and shake it off.
But It's not like my days are dreadful and depressing or anything. I think I have to be looking forward to something in order to feel motivated.
That sucks though....theres days when absolutely nothing is going on and life is quiet...And well thats life and I have to deal with that and find ways to make those days fun, or happy.
My birthday was alota fun!
I'm sad it's over.
(pics soon)
Im gonna start thinking about going to church more.
My brother is becoming more involved....He's becoming more of a NORMAL person to me.
He's apologized and expressed his love for me. I hope everything works out for him, and most of all I hope my family gets closer because of his changes.
This time his appologies are real, and I see it in his face. I know when he's conning, sceaming. He's not. Not this time. I do love him, just didnt know our relationship could get better. But our relationship is gonna have to be put on hold for awhile until he gets better for himself first.
I found these pics on my friend's myspace....(This is Christoper, My friend who passed away almost two years ago this month.) These are from his sister's page...
Here he is dancing with his sister Rosie....Ricky his brother is trying to cut in. (so precious)
Here's Rosie and Chris Chillen eating my favorite snack!
And Christopher all Shnazzed up!
God I miss him. <33
I force myself to get up and shake it off.
But It's not like my days are dreadful and depressing or anything. I think I have to be looking forward to something in order to feel motivated.
That sucks though....theres days when absolutely nothing is going on and life is quiet...And well thats life and I have to deal with that and find ways to make those days fun, or happy.
My birthday was alota fun!
I'm sad it's over.
(pics soon)
Im gonna start thinking about going to church more.
My brother is becoming more involved....He's becoming more of a NORMAL person to me.
He's apologized and expressed his love for me. I hope everything works out for him, and most of all I hope my family gets closer because of his changes.
This time his appologies are real, and I see it in his face. I know when he's conning, sceaming. He's not. Not this time. I do love him, just didnt know our relationship could get better. But our relationship is gonna have to be put on hold for awhile until he gets better for himself first.
I found these pics on my friend's myspace....(This is Christoper, My friend who passed away almost two years ago this month.) These are from his sister's page...
Here he is dancing with his sister Rosie....Ricky his brother is trying to cut in. (so precious)
Here's Rosie and Chris Chillen eating my favorite snack!
And Christopher all Shnazzed up!
God I miss him. <33