hey peeps
Whats up everyone? Just thought that i would update my journal. Yeah i really wished that we would have had a full day of school. Because it is so boring around my house. The one thing that i hate the most is knowing that a guy really loves you but doesn't want to go out with you because of his friends. I hate that so much. I hate that i'm single. I wish Dustin would wake the hell up. Your only going to find your true love once. And a lot of people tell me that me and him would be good together. I think that people need to stop telling me that and tell him that. I love him so much. Well enough about him. I don't want to think of him right now. Because if i do, I just want him even more. I want to invite one of my friends over to my house but i'm not sure which one yet, and i'm not sure if my dad is going to let me.I don't know what to do with my life anymore. It seems like that my life is going down the drain and there is nothing i can do to stop it. I have so much going on in my life right now. Trying to get used to having a step brother around. That is one of the hardest things i have to do. Because it was only me and my dad before they came into my life. The next hardest thing is not being with Dustin. I wish that i had a perfect life but i don't. My mother is a drunk and a drggie,she cares more about getting high, getting laided, and getting Drunk. She gave me and my sisters and brother up when i was 6 months old. I know how sad. A lot of people at school don't know me that well so they judge me by my looks. And that is one of the reason why Dustin's friends hate me, is because i'm not pretty. but looks aren't that important. I did not go after looks when i started dating dustin. I hate it so much. What does it take to get a guy to like you for who you are on the inside not the outside.I don't know what to do anymore. I'm getting sick of my life. I want to change it but its hard to change what has already happen. Well I need to go get my world history so i can try and pass that class. talk to you all later
love ya all!!!