Thanksgivinggg
Thanksgiving was fun. All the fam came over to my house and it was real busy...but fun at the same time. I was cooking all day. I made yams(yuck) and green bean casserole and cleaned the entire house. Not fun. But then my sisters, and brother in laws came over and we had a funnnn partay/shin dig. But through all this...all this time when I should be focusing on family, I wasnt. I was focusing on him and I wish i wasnt. I cant stop thinking about him and I have tried so friking hard and its impossible. Its killing me. I keep crying to try and make myself feel better(thanks alyssa...it helps a little)but like I said, it only helps a little. Then I get to that same pit that I am always in. I just want it to stop so that I can go back to being me...a carefree kid who just wants to have fun...not always have my mind on a guy. And it doesent help that I keep watching chick flicks...how to lose a guy in 10 days...dirty dancing...an afair to remember...tristan and isolde...sabrina. I really need to stop that. But in all this, I feel as if it will make me stronger in the end. I have found a guy that I love. He doesent love me back and Im staying on that. But when I do find that perfect goy that will love me...I will be a stronger person. Haha..probably not. Whatever. Maybe I will meet someone at my new job...holiday market(woot woot) And my old job is like gone. Everything in the building is like cleared out. I love how I quit and like the next day, the business is gone. Hahahahaha. I miss Bogdan though. Man, he was hot.