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Jan 15, 2007 22:23

Personal Apocalypse or New Beginning

I saw a special on ABC not to long ago, then again on the history channel this evening. It was entitled "Last days on Earth". The special featured the ten greatest threats to mankind, and our existence as we know it. It was an very thought provoking experience for me. Threat number four was the scenario of a giant meteor striking the earth.

A question was posed by the narrator, asking, If you knew the very second humanity and all life as you understood it was to end? Would you loose yourself in religion, perhaps spending your time repenting for your wrongs? Would you still go to work, or bother to pay your bills? It was suggested that some people would try to create a self sufficient shelter to ride out the apocalypse in. Other theories were that all hell would break loose, and any type of civil order would be lost. One of the show's guests suggested that people would just want to find love. I myself would try my hardest to live out the rest of my days to the fullest.

Aside from realizing once again how bad us as humans are destroying our planet by global warming, and reassuring our problems with nuclear weapons, I was forced into thinking about something more personal to me. My own apocalypse. Soon my world as I know it will be coming to an end. I will be graduating on June 5th.

I hadn't realized how close the end was until just this evening. If my math serves me right, as I'm writing this I have 140 days until I graduate and we all go our separate ways. I'm worried about what will happen afterwards, but I'm more worried about the road until then. I won't waste time with all the thing's I wish I could change, or with all things I've done that I regret over the past few years, but I will write more about what I want to accomplish before I'm done in this building.

Should I just ride it out? Keep going as I'm going, with my head down and my arms crossed, and striving for mediocrity? I won't. I'm going to do just as I would if it were the end of the world. I'm going to stand up and make friends, and strengthen the bonds with those I'm already close to. I'm going to love being here while I still can. I'm going to work twords Being more social. I'm going to be "okay" being forced into doing assignments such as this, because once there isn't pressure on me to put meaningful words on paper, I simply won't. I'm going to enjoy myself, and make things enjoyable for those close to me.

I realize that through all this, I sound as if I'm being overly nostalgic, but perhaps I should be. It feels right to me to slow down and take it all in. That's what i want for all the other members of my graduating class; to live out the final half of our time together and make it the best time of our lives. We only live once, and should have some fun times together before we have to worry more about nuclear holocaust or a giant meteor destroying our planet.
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